Maybe Its Because I'm dumb

Quantify Love, You can't
Qualify Love, You can't
I need you by my side,
Without you, I can't
I am weak, false moves and petty tricks
They become me when i see you
I love you this I know
You Love the other, that I know too
Stand by you is what I'll do
for as long as i live, you will be a part of me

The air is clearer when you are alone...

Beginnings and endings, they come they go
what is romance one might ask, and to this extent I'll say
heartache and pain, pleasure and gain
We meet we part, we stop and we start
fogiveness and love never to tell apart

No one knows how i feel
and nobody ever will
never in a hundred million years

I talked to your Dad now go pick a white dress...

Reunited as lovers once separated
Come back hither to me once again
You were like Juliet when i first saw you
Couldn't stand to stay away like the Romeo that I am
We crossed paths and said hellos
You loved something about me
And I loved your hair

We left each other at the request of father time
Til we meet again we said
knowing never will we cross paths ever again
10 years passed and we see each other
Never did we recognise the other

Still friends and never a reason to laugh or smile
All we ever did was stay the same
And never yet understood the change
We were meant to be once and yet never
We finally bade farewell to each other

Wake Me Up When September Ends

Tell me you want me
I know I do
Tell me you need me
I just can't live without you
You tell me to just say goodbye
I want to hold you for all time
Is it so hard but I don't know you at all

I know its me I'm kidding
I never knew you at all
I see you at the corner
And always from afar
Always in my dreams
Never in reality
Disillusioned I am
I would never know how to get to know you at all

I'm Drowning in My Sleep...

Goodbye to You
Goodbye to Everything
I'm holding in this world
And there is nothing more for me to say
I'm Letting Go Of You...

Together We Cry

Hearts ablaze with storm and wit
Stirring emotions of truth and grit
Oceans apart was never the reason
You and I are just two separate seasons
Fly by my high the reasons behind
Intentions unseen are but dangers within
Splendid time to be brought down
Not by flesh nor by heart
Walk away, just walk away

Kill Me, Kill Me, Kill Me Again

On these tear today I fall
Broken deeper and deeper again
I fail to see that u have gone
away and away from the end
I chase this life of you and me
I find it back where I used to be
Will you be there or stay away
I can't go back to this deep end......

If You Don't Don't...

today still i play with you
you don't notice anything
a love that is frozen
silent you a silent love silent pleasant feelings
silent me a silent love silent scars

you the eighteen person don't notice me
softly you have confirmed me this frozen love
quiet you a quiet love i kill my quiet pleasant feelings
quiet me a quiet love a quiet

i can't change this silent love can't change
peacefully peacefully it coils up around both of us

a silent heart a quiet heart cut in my heart
a silent heart a quiet heart even if you are going to play with my heart

i can't change this silent love can't change
peacefully peacefully it coils up around both of us

since i noticed you
i just wanna be able to be by your side
i finally embraced you
i didn't know that it would be the last time

Septic Emotions

I have been to the ends of this place
Seen the values that people have shoved in my face
To be the Raw tension that seperates me and you
Can't you see that I have fallen from grace

You bring out the poison in me
The septic emotions that burst out in threes
You agitate the heart inside of me
Break my wings don't set me free

Frustation Abounds

I need to calm down, I am not me
This is the time when one becomes none
The band of futility engulfs me
I am angry I agree
I cannot force it unto me
To be happy to be me
I need to scream and release the frustration
You betray me
You betray me
I blame you and I blame me
Somebody come rescue me
I am so alone

I Want Nobody But You.....

An inexplicable calm against the chill of the forgotten suspense
A big intent of silence
A feeling of nothingness under the skin
It crawls again deep within
feeling loss and bringing hope
This is going to be provoked
Selfish desires in the midst of us
Who am I to say who's first
This day I enjoy will be no more
Tomorrow will bring me grief somemore
Seeing the difference in stature and height
I cannot do anything I would like.
Withhold
Secrets....
Inside

Do You Worry That When You Die People Would Never Have Truly Known You?

The world is not ready for me
The world doesn't know me
The skepticism escapes me
The hatred no longer beholds me
The justice bewilders me
The sense eludes me
The society is not me
The attitudes contempt me
The facade separates me


You don't know me

What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you?

I'm falling to pieces, thinking up the ways of getting to you
You're breaking my heart doing the things you do
I try to break it, so frantically shake it
but i couldn't no i couldn't

Tell me why you are always breaking my heart
You have gone too far this time


Song to be... Value it for me

What are we waiting for?

The birth of a legend
The one of champions
The Superhero of none
The one the only.....

Its my birthday....
Its my birthday....
Its my birthday....

Ru Guo Zhe Dou Bu Suan Ai...... (If even this doesnt mean love)

I gave you my music . . .
Made your song take wing . . .
And now, how you've repaid me
Denied me and betrayed me . . .
He was bound to love you
When he heard you sing . . .
Say you'll share with me one love, one lifetime . . .
Say the word and I will follow you . . .
Share each day with me, each night, each morning . . .
You will curse the day you did not do
All that the Phantom asked of you . . .

Say you'll share with me one love, one lifetime . . .
Lead me, save me from my solitude . .
Say you want me with you, here beside you . . .
Anywhere you go let me go too. . .
Christine, that's all I ask of . . .

Through the Blackened Bleeding Tarmac

Driving down endless paths
Lowered flags and desperate tasks
Dead to begin with dead again
Oh can we be safe in the arms of the ones we love
Can we be sure of our existence without the other but with the one
We place our trust in things we see and yet the unseen, the alluring,
Can we see and reverse what we have become
What was yours will be a ring without finger
And the rambling lingers on...
until we find the right time to become...
sense to the senseless
faith to the faithless
in shambles i become
to bleed i will die
to truth i will see but yet deny
I am dead, in this i cannot falsify
I am dead, my heart is gone and i am awake
Dead to you, dead to me
Drink to this misery
I beseech you me.
Cry......................... Tears...................... Broken................................

Spinning Out of Control

Through the times of trial and fire
The oft thought times of turmoil and pain
We see through the eyes of those that see
The hearts of those that sense
The emotions of the fragile
We see pain through the eyes of the happy
The grace throught the naems of the blessed
I spin, we spin and we get out into the open
Out of control we steadily become
The pain unbearable, the heart so fallible
We crush as we break
We know its never early
But it will always be too late.

Appeal to my sense of love

There used to be a time when I loved
We are born, we live, we die
Things happen and sometimes we forget
The love in our lives will fade away
We will die everyday
Just a little, day by day
Singing songs of sin and grace
Echoes of a haunting voice
Blacken into the dark descent
Searching eternally for completion
Looking for our own happiness
The lost half we will never find
Things Aren't so beautiful now

The Kind of Woman That Blows My Mind

The hourglass lady feels svelt to the touch
Walking in motion the sways of emotion
When best defined you blow my mind
Someone I want but cannot have
I see you alive in your throes of passion
Dancing amidst the scenes of gentle perpetual chaos
Silent in your word but loud it your expression
The sense of love dwelling deep within
Incomplete I look to you
Finding happiness that falsely belongs
Wrought with agony i stay away
Losing what could be my eternal bliss
This is you and there am I
Away from you looking deep inside
I burn myself to scream I hide
I lose myself I think of you
I dream of a plain, just me and you
Walking hand in hand, do it again
Skin to skin and heart to heart
These seven ways to tear us apart
Dreams are only but dreams
I lost the dream i never had
but you in me will always remain

Dont break my heart, It is already broken

The Truth

The Truth
The incomparable
The inconsolable
The inevitable
The Truth, when revealed
Brings memories of pain and breaks the heart of the one who cannot forget and cannot face
The Truth hurts

Open From The Inside Out

You were always right, always right
The epitome of love met the epitome of pain
What was it you wanted?
It just couldn't be avoided
It was not so bad
For the result was the best we ever had

A Thousand Poundings of the Treacherous Heart unto the brain..

Pierce my heart this dark confession
Brought to light this broken life
Set to bring the nights of memories
Cries of torture in my mind

Bring me this set of tools to maim my heart
and set me away on this broken dream
Timeless neverending stories of you
It breaks my heart, it breaks my heart

Understand

Why can't you understand what I feel inside
The desire to do things that are put to task
One desired spurned the other
Turns out events are truly of another
The need for one last hurrah
The bleak misery of denial
Absence of the.......

Reasons To Leave - AVA

A long awaited beginning
A pre desired outcome
Answers living like this for results
Praying for success over failure
For too Long
For too Long
All alone never more


Sing on, Play on


Rock on \m/

L.I.D

As I sit in here waiting for the world to turn back to the way it used to be
I discover that it has become meaningless for me
Trapped in the finality of being
It seems everything is about to end just when it is about to begin
To bid farewell to everything before the permanance sets in
Impossible to find, impossible experience
Impossible to Love

Memories

Sacrifice yourself and show me what is left
You take the breath right out of me
Hole where my heart should be
Tears in my eyes
I cry deep inside
I will hide it within
Nobody sees and nobody will know
You took my best and my entire all
Left nothing to me and broke it all
I love you but have nothing at all
In the end

Anyway You Want It

Frustrations abound when i think of you
It bleeds my heart through and through
Changes you make again and again
I think it may be time to move on
Until then I remain my own

You refuse to respond to my pleas
I am forced to take action my anxiety to ease
My hands are soaking in the blood of technology
Look in my eyes and tell me its time to move on

Push you through to my brink
I head in different directions
Aroused and confused
I tell myself this is wrong
Ask direction that point me to death
All because of you

Save Me

Made a mistake
Irreversible
Tried to form a relationship
Irreparable
Shattered hopes and broken dreams
This is how it feels to not believe
Facing up to what is inside your mind
Fill it up with dreams but all you seem to find
Empty as all the facets of your mind
Goodbye forever just fade away

Masked

Intentions hidden from plain sight
Atrocious schemes surface beyond the horizon
Uncover the sins of the past
Unearthing the wrongs of passion long gone
Bring upon the residue of motionless spitfire
And lay the blame on love
We are masked behind this veil
We are masked behind this shield

For a dream is only but a fleeting moment of feelings in this dumb little head

Looking back
Nothing can compare to what you mean to me
Nothing in this world is worth the trouble, the wait and the risk
I was willing to give you all and still am
For what lifts me up are not the angels in the sky
Nor the beauty of the natural world
But the thought of you in all the little precious moments we had together

Its been so long why is it again that I have to be reminded of you?
I just cannot forget what seems to be the bittersweet of my past
My past.

Why

Linda Liao reminds me of you
That beautiful face and that beautiful smile
though you were never there
I regret that I let you go
Crazy like me
You never did love
but in you
I found what love meant to me
Kissing you in my dreams
unsuspecting, the best in my dreams
Only in my dreams

Liberate

Beeter than I you and me
We have became puppets of this time
Struggling to portray the image to the sightless
Turning ourselves into creatures that have become blind
Insude the fire we burn
The unquenching desire for liberation
Steal a cry we deem freedom mine

The day that never comes

I am drawn towards and away
from you
I cannot stop myself moving forwards and backwards
from you
I love you and I dont deny it
This crushing secret that keeps you away
I am in flames
All I want is to see you in all that you are
All I want is to be with you
It all seems so far right now
I need you, This I know

You And I

The longing is long gone
I have seen too many, I have felt the same
I think of that, I think of You
I have masked that thing about you
I think of you less often now
I barely seem to even care
I must be distracted, I must be looking away
Yes I am, I cant help it but I know I'll miss you again

Months......

Trapped inside this shell
A monster lurks, ready to pounce
On every mistake, the faults that i make
To see me fall

Ignorance is not a reason
Put the blame on me
I cant see these eyes, they make me sick
They make me cry

We are the people all screaming to be heard
We are together now all hurting deep inside
You are the one you are the reason
You steal my life away

Best Mistake I've Ever Made

Dreaming of you
Holding me close to you
Wanting to believe its true
I held on for too long
I still missed you
Thought I could stop myself from feeling this way
Fate would have it
That was my mistake
Thinking of you makes me feel this way
I cannot help losing myself in your memories
Even if my heart should break
I'm so far down this way
I dont think i can ever get back again

Oh no look what you've done, You've made a fool of everyone...

The untainted cannot see
Tainted paths beyond the tree
To be blind is to be free:
Rid of all that superficiality
Die to me and die to them
Bring about the change within
So its been said so its been done
I came across this broken path and now, im done

Do You Know?

Do you know what it feels like loving someone who is in a rush to throw you away?

Greatly missed and truly hated
I have become what i most despise
I miss what i was love what i have become
And am the opposite of what is
Blending truth and lies
Suffocating soon in this silence
What have i become?
The tragedy of the century
Sweetest compulsion to echo my pain
Bringing out the hollows of my inner being
I am empty.

Full moon sways gently in the niight of one fine day

Loneliness

I cannot stand loneliness
I am so full of loneliness
It drags you down
It tears you apart
Especially when u see memories of the past
Heart aching feeling sad
Memories will never be better then they were
They were bad, sad and full of pain
Physical pain is bearable
Heartache is pure torture

Screaming Into The Heart Of Darkness

FWAAAAHHHH...........
Hate.. Love.. Life.. Die..
I Scream again tonight
Standing in this place at the brink of oblivion
I cant be mad now i brought this
Upon myself
I cant look back at the way it used to be
I cant look at myself
Streaming tears abhor the burning sensation
Inside i melt i slip away

Into oblivion i see
My life there sliping before me
You hindered me
But i blame myself

I scream i scream
I cry i cry
Without you i die inside
I fight i fight
the demons inside
I struggle cuz all wanted was you

All i wanted was you.....

Letting Go

Its Just a Feeling,
Like a bad memory that refuses to go away
Falling away from reality throught the throes of passivity
Got to get out got to get away
Take a chance at you
To fly forever in joys of me and you
Leave me my dreams
Leave me my deceit
Conceive the hatred and deny the love
Break the heart that will never love
What you going to do with this crying shame
The love you made rusted away and cried in pain

The Sun Still Sleeps

I look tonight i look tonight
Seething from the darkness that i hide
Moving out and moving in
Looking for whats right i see within

Outstretched arm outstretched arms
Reaching out to me that is inside
Loving me loving me
The only truth that i truly truly see

These nights, carried me
Waking through the hours
Looking for the light

These nights, carried me
Waking through the hours
Looking for the lights

The Sun still sleeps The sun still sleeps
Dream within , Awaken dreams
I love you i love you
The supreme notion of love awakens within me.

I Scream Tonight

Long hair Black eyes
Hypnotised Mesmerised
I can see the long time around
The short clock wound
Hey Yo Oh Oh
Hey Yo Uh Oh

Screaming Solos blinding sides
Meandering turns Endless lies
I scream tonight i scream tonight
Locking it down
Hey Yo Oh Oh
Hey Yo Uh Oh

The short term silence
Long term absence
Nobody wants it, helps it.

Crazy Little Thing Called Love

I dreamt of you today
I dreamt that you were getting married
I was in a monkey suit
Tears streamed down my face
Happy Sad would be the right thing to say

I took a picture with a dimly bright smile
Sang the prayers with big hearted cheer
I dreamt in that dream
We were together
We were getting married

I am disillusioned
Disillusioned and heartbroken
In tears i scream out your name
In pain i writhe in agony
In anguish i weep........

Sunkissed Flame

So far into the daylight
I remember the day
When we were young
Gentle in the wind
Quick in the sand
Cold, Obsolete
Broken and utterly destroyed
So far away
So far away

Charlie

Cure me of this sickness deep down inside
I am no more myself now and 10 years ago
Shaken to the bone when i was told
So many questions left unanswered

Tonight tonight i set my pain aside
Stretch out my hand and pull you in
Justify all my misgivings and pain
Bring you the feeling of faith and dispair

So pull me out tonight
Or i will pull you in
My world is shrinking and breaking
My weariness growing thin
I need you here tonight

Fade Out

I don't want to give my heart out
I just dont want to waste my time
Forget about those broken feelings
This little heart of mine

I just want to fade out of the picture
Remain plain out of sight
Nobody understands this feeling
I hide deep down inside

Bring out all my memories
Burn the ones of you
Walk back into the future
Walk away from you

Life dont get me nowhere
We'll all die someday
Bring me to the end
Will I be free one day?

Misery neverending
Misery so sad to see
Symphony all around thee
Despair forever I will be

Fade out in time
Disappear into oblivion
Looking through the glass
Watching time pass

It feels like forever
The life of lost love
Sorrowful cries
Numbness of the soul

Only Time Will Tell

Sometimes it gets lonely down here
Alone in the blue, in the midst of the alien cold
The view of your back
The trailing scent of you I miss
Obviously you dont see
I am trying to be

What its like to be alone when you're down
What its like when you want to scream out loud
What its like when you got nobody to hold
What its like to be so alone.

I am Deprived of the Little Things in life

Corrupt the embrace that warms me
Cold hard floors I slowly take liberties with
Exercise my right to disillusion
Begin my quest to fill my soul beyond
Conscious conscience is wearing thin
People irritate me
People refuse me
People HATE me
Stranger in a strange land i will be
Forever.

Cry My Lungs Out Spilling Blood Unto The Floor Of Oblivion

Flowing from the veins out into the open
The creation of dreams crushed in an instant
Hopes for a lifetime of love gone
Reasoning the blame on himself
Pushing away any semblance of rational thought
Crying for hope to become reality
Seeing things that are not always there
Jealousy kills the soul
Blatant longings heartfelt and broken
I loved and died the day you said goodbye...

Too Long... Too Long...

Its been so hard to describe
The neverending facts of life
The death of an oncoming dream
The birth of something without not within
Sensing the right from wrong
But indifference sets in
Nobody cares whats is the truth
I am I what are u not for me to decide
We are in the dumps you know it
The signs are eminent
Men die...

Spider Lillies

Have heart my dear, we are bound to be afraid
Even if its for a few days.
Creating a ripple in the splash of high waters
Effecting a change in the heart of mine
Maybe the thoughts of you have lingered on
Wake up heed the call, even if u cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside u here.

As if caring for you isn't enough, i have to contend with myself and one other
This head can only have one, you.
Placing the focus away, i have met a few.
Those three words, blind my thoughts, not enough
Fly by and burst through, why dont you
Imagination runs wild, attracted to the wild lillies around
Enough to burst into life a fire.

Filled with oft lonely thoughts, wild runnings and chasing dreams
Darkness and running all around
Lost inside my dreams but never lost in love
I've got wires all around me, going in and crawling out of my skin
Tears are making tracks down my face and yours
Got to get this through and clear of you
Hope is reflecting your eyes

You'll be alright my dear, i see it in your eyes
Confusion, sadness and cares of the world
Running down corridors and automatic doors
I'll get to you one day, I'll see this life through
Looking at the situation now.
You would never know
I miss you, but its different now

I am attracted to you and you
I'll find you somewhere in my mind
Show you how much i care.
Bring out this dream and seek the jealousy in me
One day leave behind my everything and feel winter's embrace
The bittersweet embrace of the one love I'll never have
Yours.

I confuse people, but dont be
I make people think, please dont
Enjoy it and leave it as that
I am not that hard to crack am I?

Sadly you took my smile away...

Everytime i think of you, i cannot help but feel a bout of blue
Saying maybe this what if that, hoping for fruition of something mutual
Cross referenced with the touch of an angel i falter
Promised to have and to hold, i am losing grip of you
Whoever said crushes won't ever last long?
The dumbfounded romance of the self upon individual
Feeling you when u are near, or have i got it all wrong?
Mustering the courage of a lion or even a Samuel
Not mattering and leaving it be, something will happen but it will not be me
Flutters the heart a mighty dance, maybe i really got it all wrong
Let the heart lead me on, questing for the one that is true to heart
The wait for the arrival of the fabled kiss of life
Lift the open hand and patiently determine if this is the one
Fall in step and bring about the night of uninhibited freedom

Find your Natural High

Sometimes it takes only that one thought to blot out what has been done
The need to resuscitate the once broken breathless insecurities
Contradiction of a melevolent account, can you read my mind?

Work Work....

Its been so so long since i last said something. My birthday has passed.. Im 21 now.. Sch has been interesting weird and busy. Life has suddenly become so busy. Joined Knightsfall jamming our way to an album.. hahaz.. Tired out as it is and waiting for something easier to come by.. Woohoo...

Praise and All Glory Be to God forever and ever Amen!!

Praise God!!! Hahaz... I passed my Traffice Police Test today!! Praise God.. Thank God for He really pulled me through the test. Today onwards Aaron/Noraa Chan is an official biker riding A Bajaj Pulsar.. Woohoo...

I Have Had Enough Of Being Played Out by People...

I have brought you,
that our passions may fuse and merge -
in your mind you've already succumbed to me
dropped all defences completely succumbed to me -
now you are here with me: no second thoughts,
you've decided, decided ...

Past the point of no return -
no backward glances:
the games we've played till now are at an end ...
Past all thought of "if" or "when" -
no use resisting: abandon thought, and let the dream descend ...

What raging fire shall flood the soul?
What rich desire unlocks its door?
What sweet seduction lies before us ...?

Past the point of no return,
the final threshold - what warm, unspoken secrets will we learn?
Beyond the point of no return ...

You have brought me to that moment where words run dry,
to that moment where speech disappears into silence,
silence ...

I have come here, hardly knowing
the reason why ...
In my mind,
I've already imagined our bodies entwining
defenceless and silent - and now I am here with you: no second thoughts,

I've decided, decided ...

Past the point of no return -
no going back now:
our passion-play has now, at last, begun ...
Past all thought of right or wrong -
one final question: how long should we two wait, before we're one ...?

When will the blood begin to race the sleeping bud burst into bloom?
When will the flames, at last, consume us ...?
Past the point of no return the final threshold -
the bridge is crossed, so stand and watch it burn ...
We've passed the point of no return ...

Nearing The Beginning...

Woohoo... Been a very hectic month after CNY.. So busy so many things to do. Yay.. getting my riding license soon. TP coming up as soon as possible.. I have decided to go SIM study Bachelor of Arts Communication. Must admit in being a tad disappointed for not ever going to attend NUS or NTU and experieincing the campus life of Singapore. I must say it sometimes is very hurting when friends start talking about going on to doing stuff in NUS and NTU and sharing mutual experiences. Sad but true. I am never ever going to go in.

Nice Guys Finish Last and Lonely.. So what's New?

Take a photograph,
It'll be the last,
Not a dollar or a crowd could ever keep me here,

I don't have a past
I just have a chance,
Not a family or honest plea remains to say,


Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun.


Is it you I want,
Or just the notion
Of a heart to wrap around so I can find my way around

Safe to say from here,
Your getting closer now,
We are never sad cause we are not allowed to be


Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun.
Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun.


To lie here under you,
Is all that I could ever do,
To lie here under you is all,
To lie here under you is all that i could ever do,
To lie here under you is all,

Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun.
Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun,
All the world is waiting for the sun,
All the world is waiting for the sun.

Sooner Or Later...

Crushes hurt.
They hurt more when you know its not a crush anymore
The thought of spurned love
The thought of loneliness
The idea of never finding anybody else that can make you feel that peculiar joy
The one that lifts your spirits the way nothing else can
Something that time will never repair
A wound never to be closed
Everybody knows how its like
Non as much as the one that is in this plight
In tears run dry
We cannot deny
Sorrow

Help Me

Lord, Help me walk
Another mile, just one more mile;
I'm tired of walkin' all alone.

Lord, Help me smile
Another smile, just one more smile;
You know I just can't make it on my own.

I never thought I needed help before;
I thought that I could get by - by myself.
Now I know I just can't take it any more.
With a humble heart, on bended knee,
I'm beggin' You, please, Help Me.

Come down from Your golden
And throne to me, to lowly me;
I need to feel the touch of Your tender hand.

Remove the chains of darkness
Let me see, Lord let me see;
Just where I fit into your master plan.

I never thought I needed help before;
I thought that I could get by - by myself.
Now I know I just can't take it any more.
With a humble heart, on bended knee,
I'm beggin' You, please, Help Me.

God's Gonna Cut You Down

You can run on for a long time
Run on for a long time
Run on for a long time
Sooner or later God'll cut you down
Sooner or later God'll cut you down

Go tell that long tongue liar
Go and tell that midnight rider
Tell the rambler,
The gambler,
The back biter
Tell 'em that God's gonna cut 'em down
Tell 'em that God's gonna cut 'em down

Well my goodness gracious let me tell you the news
My head's been wet with the midnight dew
I've been down on bended knee talkin' to the man from Galilee
He spoke to me in the voice so sweet
I thought I heard the shuffle of the angel's feet
He called my name and my heart stood still
When he said, "John go do My will!"

Go tell that long tongue liar
Go and tell that midnight rider
Tell the rambler,
The gambler,
The back biter
Tell 'em that God's gonna cut 'em down
Tell 'em that God's gonna cut 'em down

You can run on for a long time
Run on for a long time
Run on for a long time
Sooner or later God'll cut you down
Sooner or later God'll cut you down

Well you may throw your rock and hide your hand
Workin' in the dark against your fellow man
But as sure as God made black and white
What's done in the dark will be brought to the light

You can run on for a long time
Run on for a long time
Run on for a long time
Sooner or later God'll cut you down
Sooner or later God'll cut you down

Go tell that long tongue liar
Go and tell that midnight rider
Tell the rambler,
The gambler,
The back biter
Tell 'em that God's gonna cut you down
Tell 'em that God's gonna cut you down
Tell 'em that God's gonna cut you down

Work Work....

Over the hills and far away
No mind can fathom what i have to say
The realisation that i have a partner
Makes me want to stop and ponder
Quite a handful of new people i know
Wish it would have been easier though
There is really no escape from this
Bashing through with a sweet sweet kiss
Been newly crowned as a saltshaker
Not really something i would have bothered
Wishing you were somehow here again
Never ever would my days be plain
I feel weird and lousy
Bye

Raining Again....

Sleepless Nights Spent Endlessly Thinking And Pondering
Cannont Really be Understood The Reasons Why I Do
But I do
Still Thinking About You, Refusing To Do Anything
I'm Done Doing Something, Nothing Satisfies Me
Beyond The Brink Of Consciousness I Dream
Aware Of The Consequence I Face
I Love You But I Can't Face You and I Cannot Be With You
Unworthy Of The Slightest Hope, Death Is A Quick Remedy
Its Not My Time. Not Til I Find You Again
I Need You. The Warmth The Strength The Heart The Love
Burns.
The Nights I Spend Thinking Of You And What Might Have Been
Such A Painful Memory I Want to Erase
Writing Is A Sin And I Lost My Muse
Cry, I Want To But It Never Came Back To Me
Not Since You Left Me
Forever

Happy New Year

ARH... Happy New Year.
The new year is here... haiz... New year.. yay... Happy New Year All... Please enjoy. Dont do stupid things.. Hahaz...

Dumb people that sabo us all...

Irresponsibility. Something that i hate most. Something that i try my best to improve on for myself because i know it will affect people around. ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hello.. people.. wake up.. There is no point trying to cover your own ass. YOU people are a disappointment. Do not commit to something that u end up not being able to commit to. YOU GIVE PEOPLE ALOT OF PROBLEMS. I cannot stand it when people who are not involved get dragged in to do your work. I cannot stand it when you are told something simple to do and you end up being very very ineffectual by saying 'oh, im so busy with my stuff i cant do this, i cant do that....' blah blah blah. IF YOU CANT DO IT THEN DONT COMMIT TO DOING IT IN THE FIRST PLACE. STUPID or what? No brains? No cow sense. Wake up larhz. Anything else would just be vulgar and an extreme waste of time.

By God, I am a FREE man... Call me MISTER

ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD LOHZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.....

I have finished the 2 years of nonsense that is the army. The 2 years of time wasted seeing hoe the stupid govt plans your life and screws is up and how i screw it back with them... Stupid places filled with stupid people... I AM DONE WITH IT ALL... YAY...

I am free... Call me Mister... HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAZ......

She was beauty personified.

Whilst I see you still do not have the time to update, I shall do the honours for you, especially since today is one of those awesome days to read blogs and blog. Shall tell you more about the blogs I read today next time. Some are incredibly crap-like, some are a little more intellectual, yet still crap-like all the same. Its not difficult to come across blogs with substance these days, but it still is difficult to come across those which are influential for the good of mankind.

I planned to post some random pictures I took with Jackson today, but I decided against it, because your blog looks better without colourful photos which totally make no sense whatever.

Since my girlfriend Charlene will be a working woman for the next couple of weeks, means that shopping dates are delayed/cancelled. Haha. I never really enjoyed shopping. But now that I know exactly what I want, I have the undying need to go shopping. (I have never said that before) Considering my folks haven't been in town for the past few weeks, I have been such a good girl, the only place where my money seems to be going to is food and cab fares. Its a terrible loss, I know. I have plans on going Queensway and getting myself that awesome pair of Puma shoes, of course after visiting the Puma outlet at Heeren (I suppose Heeren's is more up-to-date than the Queensway designs I saw previously). After which, I need to hunt for more clothes to wear in light of the approaching Festive Season. Seeing that I haven't really been shopping for a whole year, I think it is time to get some new clothes. Hais.

Now, wasn't that a disgusting paragraph? But please note whatever I have said is, in fact, true. I dislike people who blog about their shopping sprees or how they need to satisfy their shopaholic tendancies. And that paragraph is merely the tip of the iceburg of shopping rubbish-ity people blog about. Wake up your idea lah people, get a life. Blogging about these things only add on to the heaps of internet garbage already available in such a public domain.

Moving on, I am indeed looking forward to a new school year. Actually, not really. Not that I want to continue slacking at home and having lots of "me-time", also not that I despise the idea of studying, but, I just don't want to be put into that new unfamiliar environment. Don't get me wrong though. I might be an introvert, but I welcome change, and I adapt to change quickly and I like making the best out of it. But that's a totally different issue which I am presently too lazy, or rather, can't be bothered to go into now.

My ears are rejecting certain kinds of music now. And suddenly my entire iTunes playlist doesn't seem to appeal to me. In such circumstances, it's best to just switch it off. *presses the little X button* Much better, silence, is good for your soul. Hais, just realised it's 10.17pm and I missed Ghost Whisperer on Channel 5. Oh well, I can always find something more fulfilling to do.

I suddenly crave for a delicious Subway meal. *pauses to ponder about something else* Right, anyway, I think I'm getting tired of blogging now. I need to do something else before I go mad.

Denise Cheong

Jay Chou, you is rocks.

I figured that it is time to give this blog a little revivement (if there's such a word) and rejuvination (??).

Is it WRONG to miss your ex-husband?
Yes.
Is it wrong that
you're jealous because your husband went on a honeymoon with his evil "wife"?
Yes. Because she IS his wife.
Is it wrong to divorce your
current husband because you want your previous husband back?
Yes.
Is it wrong that your ex-husband has another girlfriend now?
No. Because you dumped him first.
Is it wrong that you're
planning to kill your current husband's "wife"?
Yes.

The truth is revealed! And yet I still don't get it. Aaron, boy you must be looking forward to ORD, which is in like, a few weeks time I suppose? Your vegetable days are merely beginning! O levels ended earlier than I anticipated, and suddenly I've got quite a lot of free time to do useless good-for-nothing things. I suppose that's not good. My parents are away for 2 weeks, and suddenly I have more freedom than ever. Planning to INITIAL D around the carpark with my reckless cousin. And yes, with my dad's car. HAHAHAH. The only problem with that is that we don't know how to reverse park. So we're probably going to park head first. My dad probably won't notice the difference when he comes back, unless he takes a photo and realises that the car moved 2 inches, or rather, is parked the other way around. Aaron, faster stop me.

It is a lovely Monday morning, sunshine after rain, the beginning of a beautiful day. Maybe that's because I'm getting something brand new, black, shiny, sleek and handsome today. :)

That's all for now. Enjoy your last few weeks of working for the SAF and have a God-inspired day ahead!

The one and only,
Denise Cheong.

I LOVE LITERATURE.

IMPACT OF THE HEADMASTER ON KRISHNA.

The headmaster initially strikes Krishna as a mentally unsound and an eccentric man. Upon the first time of meeting the headmaster, Krishna already had an indifferent impression of the Headmaster. This is evident from "He struck me as an extraodrinary man." The headmaster also planted a deep interest and curiosity in Krishna then. Krishna wanted to know more about him, as seen in "I found him more and more fascinating." Krishna desired to draw closer to him, finding him as a very intriguing character. Krishna also believed that he was about to make "a profound contact in life" through the headmaster.

Later in the text, Krishna is exposed to the background and further insights of the headmaster, especially after knowing that the headmaster runs his own school for children, under his "Leave Along System". Krishna then found this system very attractive as it was far different than the British education system that he so strongly detests. This is evident from "This education has reduced us to a nation of morons, strangers to our own culture, camp followers of another culture, feeding on leavings and garbage." In contrast, the Leave Alone System doesn't spoon-feed or discipline the students excessively, very unlike the system in Albert Mission College. This is indeed a refreshing contrast to Krishna's life. Upon seeing the passion the headmaster has for his school, Krishna is drawn towards the school, which emphasizes on the importance of childhood, which is spontaneous and natural, free from rationalism, religion and other systems of thought, which Krishna later realises that that indeed is his real purpose in life. The headmaster believes in working off "the curse of adulthood" and to "speak plainly, without the varnish of the adult world". From examples like these, Krishna finally realises that that is what he has been trying to escape from, the "false education" in his college, and finally leaves the college to be a teacher in the headmaster's school, finally satisfying his "innermost aspirations".

Krishna is also often seen in awe of the headmaster's outlook in life and enthusiasm in teaching the children at his school. The headmaster seems always happy and at peace (something which Krishna has long desired), despite his dysfunctional family, consisting of his unreasonable wife and "wild" children. The headmaster seems to have failed miserably in his role as a father in upbringing his own children, yet he puts his entire life's purpose and his very existance in taking care of the children in his school, which is very ironic in fact. However, the headmaster does not let his family affect him in his aim in educating the children in his school, partly because he thought he knew the exact hour of his death. Other than that, he was a satisfied man, leaving his wife, children and neighbourhood to live at his school, focusing on attaining a genuine lifestyle, his commitment to living the truth of what he truely believes in. This is evident in "I strictly want to live according to my own plan of living and not subordinate it for anybody's sake." Krishna later on adopts this idea of a more genuine lifestyle and resigns from his job at the college.

Krishna would never have decided to resign from his job if it weren't for the headmaster. At one point, he thought of giving up, when he said "One works for money.. said I in my sober cynicism." However, seeing the headmaster being so headstrong in his life, Krishna decides to discard the importance of money, to let go of his child Leela in seeing that "She must have her own life" and seeks "an inner peace" and a more harmonious existance in working at the headmaster's school. Krishna also finds much "delight and enlightenment" in teaching the children. From this I can see that through very subtle encounters with the headmaster, the headmaster indeed helped Krishna rediscover life's purpose.

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WHA. I CAN'T EVEN REACH 5 PARAGRAPHS. CAN FILL TWO SIDES OF FOOLSCAP PAPER OR NOT!? This essay needs to be improved within 24 hours.

I hope the headmaster is tested. :)

Yours sincerely,
Denise CHEONG

the Cheong-san one-man regime is finally here.

The NK Story

"Flee Aaron, FLEE! WMD is commiinng..!"

*KABOOM*

ALARM signal is being played island-wide. You duck under the table for cover. "WHAT TO DO? WHAT TO DO?!" You wait anxiously, chewing your fingernails off. You start freaking out and burst into profuse sweating.

*KABOOM*

You scream.

You are squatting, under your table made of sheer cheap wood, in your brand new shabby apartment you just rented along macpherson road, shivering in fear of the square-jawed North Koreans. You have no radio, "I should have listened to the SCDF when they told me to buy one." You curse upon your apparent unreadiness. You wait, and wait, in painful anticipation of the ALL CLEAR SIGNAL.

Then, in the dead, still silence you reside in, you hear footsteps..

-TO BE CONTINUED-

NAOMI VICE (sneak preview)

14 october - tragedy. she stole my true love away. why naomi, why.
miyagi is mine. but because he is yours first, that's why he must celebrate birthday for you. but be wary my dear naomi, for i will come looking for you, in your darkest memory. because you know, and i know, that he's not the one for you. miyagi is mine.
so naomi, don't fear the nights and the bitter cold, because both you and i know why i'm there. self-deception is easy. but you can't fool me, naomi. not now, not ever. so give back what doesn't belong to you.

stealing is a sin, didn't you hear?

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managed to dig out these stories and editted them a bit. well, look forward to more stories coming your way! for now, take care and huan ying, enjoy. =\ (whatever that means.)

signing out,
Cheong-san.

2 more months to ORD!!!!!!!

Some people live their dreams
Some people close their eyes
Some people´s destiny
Passes by

There are no guarantees
There are no alibis
That´s how our love must be
Don´t ask why

It take´s some time
God knows how long
I know that I can forget you

As soon as my heart stops breakin´
Anticipating
As soon as forever is through
I´ll be over you

Remembering times gone by
Promises we once made
What are the reasons why
Nothing stays the same

There were the nights
Holding you close
Someday I´ll forget them

As soon as my heart stops breakin´
Anticipating
As soon as forever is through
I´ll be over you

As soon as my heart stops breakin´
Anticipating
Someday I´ll be over you

As soon as my heart stops breakin´
Anticipating
Someday I´ll be over you

As soon as my heaaah...
(As soon as my heart stops breakin´ Anticipating)
I'll be over You

Maybe......... Maybe Not......

I Look At You You Look At Me (You Can't Help It You're Feeling Butterflies)
Its obvious, We have Chemistry (I think I know it cuz it feels so right)
Girl I wanted so long to know
Now Your telling me you gotta let it go (Dont Tell Me I have to start all over again)
I Never thought that this day would come (This is somthing that i've wanted in my life)
I realize that you're the one (and you're telling me its time to say goodbye)
To Put this out of my heart It ain't gonna change
So it shouldn't be so easy to walk away (You feel it I feel it lets not be tense)


Baby, I Don't Know What Love Is Maybe I'm A Fool
I Just Know What I'm Feeling And It's All Because Of You
Don't Tell Me I Don't Know I Want The Truth
Cuz They Call It We Call It You Call It I Call It Love

It's so clear for you to see (dont let anybody tell you what to do)
Why they can't they just let us be happy (i dont want to find somebody new)
If you know what's real in your heart
Then dont let them tear us apart (Cuz you feel it I feel it Lets think this through)

Baby, I Don't Know What Love Is Maybe I'm A Fool
I Just Know What I'm Feeling And It's All Because Of You
Don't Tell Me I Don't Know I Want The Truth
Cuz They Call It We Call It You Call It I Call It Love

We Have a bond thats unbreakable And its not time to let it go
And now that we know its real
We are going to let it show To the whole world
That I'm yours forever and you're my girl

Baby, I Don't Know What Love Is Maybe I'm A Fool
I Just Know What I'm Feeling And It's All Because Of You
Don't Tell Me I Don't Know I Want The Truth
Cuz They Call It We Call It You Call It I Call It Love

You take the breath right out of me. You left a hole where my heart should be

Breath

I see nothing in your eyes, and the more I see the less I like.
Is it over yet, in my head?

I know nothing of your kind, and I won't reveal your evil mind.
Is it over yet? I can't win.

So sacrifice yourself, and let me have what's left.
I know that I can find the fire in your eyes.
I'll throw it all away, get away, please.

You take the breath right out of me.
You left a hole where my heart should be.
You got to fight just to make it through,
'cause I will be the death of you.

This will be all over soon. Pour salt into the open wound.
Is it over yet? Let me in.

So sacrifice yourself, and let me have what's left.
I know that I can findthe fire in your eyes.
I'll throw it all away, get away, please.

You take the breath right out of me.
You left a hole where my heart should be.
You got to fight just to make it through,
'cause I will be the death of you.

I'm waiting, I'm hating, realize, start hiding.

You take the breath right out of me.
You left a hole where my heart should be.
You got to fight just to make it through,
'cause I will be the death of you.

If I just lay here

I'm back again... yay... So many months.. too much work.. RSAF Open House.. went nuts. Came back... Now i'm just waiting for ORD.. hahaz.. December 7 here i come...

Finally.....

WHAHAHA.. Finally I have the opportunity to use the computer for a long enuff time. Wireless Rocks. Yay.. will update more soon.. Soo busy now.. working on the invites for RSAF open house.. AH.... I'm so gonna post some writing soon...

Probably in late June early July...

Silence Of A Different Kind

It cannot be said how the heart truly feels
It gets broken again and again
Mending takes too much
Burdened by multiple wounds

Silence once again evades me
And I am on the brink
Weary and unassured
I haven't found a way
Maybe it hasn't come
It won't, Yes it will

I care too much to think about it
I want to cry
But I am at a sudden loss of emotions
Cry cry cry
Too much too late
What's done is done
A tear will still be a tear
No mending will make it perfect again
Ever

Silence and I rejoice
Silence I cannot find
Dark have my dreams been
of a tired and lonely scene

Woah Long Time

Been so long.. Hahaz. so much has happened and everything is crazy.. Youth camp, church camp and lots of other stuff. and we end up here.. I finally got time to update so i'll update smth i wrote last month....

Numb and broken, here I stand alone
Wondering what were the last words I said to you
Hoping, praying that I'll find a way to turn back time
Can I turn back time?


What would I give to behold
The smile, the face of love?
You never left me
The rising sun will always speak your name


Numb and broken, here I stand alone
Wondering what were the last words I said to you


It won't be long, we'll meet again
What would I give to behold
The smile, the face of love?
You never left meThe rising sun will always speak your name
It won't be long, we'll meet again
Your memory is never passing
It won't be long, we'll meet again
My love for you is everlasting

I mourn for those who never knew you

It won't be long, we'll meet again
Your memory is never passing
It won't be long, we'll meet again
My love for you is everlasting


I need you now more than ever...
Not really the best days of my life...

Sometimes I Just Wanna................

Been a couple of days.. hahaz... Totally tiring its been doing very random stuff be it outside or at work... Constantly doing work cant sleep right and my clocks going heywire... Dumb phone cracked and i dont even know why... Talk about a bittersweet day. One moment it was good then i just died when i saw my phone.... Past few days have been good too.. Hahaz.. met up with Lynn after sooo long, totally enjoyed myself. Went to liquid kitchen... Hahaz.. its like the fourth time in a month.. talk about overkill. Haiz.. Feeling tired and slightly frustrated.. Nvm.. Til next time...

140506 0322hrs

The time of facing one's demons is here
I stand facing mine,
I can only face them alone
The choice i have at hand is clear to the mind
The heart cannot and does not want to accept what is fact
Holding onto even a single thread

Believing in one's own mistake is one mistake too far
The mouth cannot express what the heart and mind truly mean
The contradictions are non-apparent to me
But the confusion will ruin even the best of us

So the demon towers over me
Awaiting for the obvious to happen
For the right opportune to fall me
The straight is tough but i will walk

I fear not because i know i can trust
I will make the decision, I will place my faith
But the bankrupt will find the means to love again
Invest his time into something he hopes will be fruitful
Dig deep and search I only find fear and weariness
Something still does not disappear

Silence still evades me

I am thinking of two
Less of one more of you
Carrying a rational open notion
I can't stop thinking of you......

Sometimes Your Brain Just Doesn't Seem to help at all....

Hellooo... Had a fun time last friday... Cooked spagetti for everyone.. Had fun shopping with Esther and Henry had fun talking to everybody and i was labelled a bimbo for exclaiming dat i wanna go shopping out loud... hahaz... Hung out with bryan david and evelyn after dat at siglap... Sat was all blur though... Lol.. ended up eating at marina south... Had soccer on sunday... The longest time since i last played.. Like at least a yr ago.. Whoo... today was a silly yet peaceful work day.... and tml i will be going to see the specialist at TTSH.. slack again.. My leave is approved... GOOD... I cant get this song out of my head... its by Olivia called Make It Mutual

Make It Mutual

A quiet moment by myself on the beach
A sweet feeling that is swirling in me
Its delirious

Now that's a sugar rush
My heart is beating oh so fast
And i hope i dont fall into deep too fast

There's no need to rush
We can take our time
Let it go the natural way
We begin as friends
And who knows what
Where this could be taking me



In this nice cool breeze
Yes i am all at ease
When I gush
And ths sweet feeling comes to me
Can't deny can't lie can't really face the truth
And i wonder if you're feeling the same way too



You know what i would like?
I'd like to get to know you more
Make that mutual
Boy, you know you wanna know me too

This is how you make me feel
When you're here i feel your vibe
And i hope i don't fall into deep too fast

You're not the type
Who'll rush into things
And let it slip away
Yeah, i like your type
Caught up in this ride
Its kinda silly but i'll say

Chorus


Have fun ppl.. i wrote something 2 nights ago.. Putting it up too...

I just bought 2 cds.. And got myself poor... Alas temptation...

Wat a tiring day yesterday... Had to sit out 2 wars in a day... major ones as well, one in the morning and one in the afternoon... Office politics at its ugliest.. Cant stand arguments, they make me feel dizzy... The skys were threatening to kill as well while i was on my way home... Today i finally registered for bike lessons... 1st lesson 26th may... didnt know there were dat many ppl learning bike... Work was weird, so was the day... Went shopping for 2 cds... wanted to buy only Red Hot Chilli Peppers but saw Olivia's aka Li Ting's cd... then bought it without really considering how poor i am... hahahaz... So i guess its time to scrimp and save... Cant wait for friday.. so excited... cell outing hahaz.. never felt like this in awhile...


Out of the ground I rise to grace
Nobody knows it's just a phase
Help me I'm out of breath again
Nobody knows somewhere to make it go away



But when the comforter is come, whom i will send unto you from the Father
even the spirit of truth, which proceedeth from the Father, He shall testify of Me
John 15:26

This day is..... an ordinary day......

Wat a day... I'm at home... hahaz... got a day off... whee... I'm still sick.. Have been sick since labour day... Ack.... Im slowly getting used to being called shalom cell... But i alredi love this cell group.. And I'm looking forward to having more to do with them and know them more... Anywayz... i love today as well... its a perfect ordinary day... 8th may.. has a nice ring to it...


080506

The quest for silence is a contempt to my head
The mind thinks what the heart cannot stop
The mind thinks what the heart cannot want
The heart wants what the mind cannot force
The world of contradictions in one body
Thinking one but saying another
Saying one but thinking of another
The question of forget and regret roll into one
And from that one, many thoughts come upon
me on this night and early morn
A time of great joy and great mourn
080506 2.00 am
Silence evades me
I am thinking of two
You remembered You didnt
Not yet anyway......

My Oh My.......

Hello again.... I just got posted to Personnel Admin section last week... Wow... made new friends and had a bit of fun... Still waiting to start working on Runway cycling... Now im just doing extra stuff like filing and typing random entries of information all day long... going nuts... hahaz....


I'm in love with a girl,
Everybody seems to know.
I'll sing it loud,
Sing it 'cos I'm feeling proud of love.
Oh yeah, this is love.

You take me away to another place,
You show me a way to a higher grace.
You take me away to another place,
I'm seeing it all with a happy face.

She can walk on the waves,
Crashing through my own desire.
Swing and sway,
Dance until my demons fly away.
This is love, this is love.

Take me away....

Cure My Tragedy

Halox... Haha... i had smth to put up here but I'm not sure if i want to... Weird... Nvm... I'm still waiting to see if I can push for my 8 to 5 faster... soon...
Im into old sch disco and mat rock songs this few days... hahaz....

Ask, and it shall be given you;
Seek, and ye shall find;
Knock, and it shall be opened unto you.

Matthew 7 : 7

Runaway Train

Helloo.... Long while... Hahaz... I thank God for helping me to speed up my downgrade process and also keep me at my original workplace.. Thank God... Now i can work 8 - 5 and serve God more... Whoopie hahaz.... Also sent in my Uni application again.. Had better work this time God willing...

We're Still Fighting It...

Back from work yesterday... Was kinda moody yesterday probably tired too... It comes together... Took a can of tiger classic and got slping at arnd 2 am... Wanted to ask Jeff out for supper but gave up cuz he had smth else after W nI... Had so much wanted to take a walk alone to seletar reservoir... That would really have been mad... Anyayz got up at 945 today... Never so early in awhile... Church today, time to go and see my boys and start preparing stuff for cell... Work tml, sigh....


Silence in a maddening crowd
Solitude in the face of a distant memory

Show Me The Meaning Of Being Happy...

Its been awhile... Very busy with lotsa stuff...mom is in australia right now and gonna be back on thursday... Valentines day was interesting, got invited to a picnic with Chui Li Evelyn and Joy along with Jeff and Chin at botanical gardens. Was fun but i was still kinda moody that day.. I think im gonna start hating this day where i see loving couples everywhere... Hahaz... While waiting for the girls i wrote a couple of stuff... I now have no idea if writing stuff makes me feel better or more depressed... I seriously reckon i'll go mad... Oh, Jeff got his driving license.. nice...

Sometimes BSB have the nicest most meaningful of songs....

Happy Lunar New Year......

Past weeks been a chore... Totally tired out by work and everything outside it... Having a headache as to what i'm gonna do with certain issues im facing right now... God grant me wisdom.. Grant Ian the brains to know wat it is he has to do. Let him see where the hell he is going if he continues like this. 4 years and not a single thing has changed. An investment gone wrong. Im kinda losing money on this.. The speculator would sell but im not a stock guy so i cant. Not so worried about the rest as i am about Ian.. bet he doesnt know. Thinks we are victimising him so be it. We'll see wat happens then....

Haiz.. Tired... very.. cant type straight... bye....

When a person turns to wrong, is it a want to be, belong?
Part of things at any cost, at what price a life is lost

At what point do we begin, fighter spirit a will to win
But what makes a man decide, take the wrong or righteous road

There's a thin line between love and hate
Wider divide that you can see between good and bad
There's a grey place between black and white
But everyone does have the right to choose the path that he takes

We all like to put the blame on society these days
But what kind of good or bad a new generation brings

Sometimes take just more than that to survive be good at heart
There is evil in some of us no matter what will never change

I will hope, my soul will fly, so i will live forever
Heart will die, my soul will fly, and i will live forever

Maybe Someday You Will Say Those Words To Me...

Today is my off day... Its gonna be a day of rest. Work's already a killer cant wait to be in sch again (if i ever get in). Never in my life am i gonna work shift work ever. My body is taking a lot of punishment and im just dead tired.. God lead me on to greater things. In You i will trust and i pray for strength to take cell and lead Your sheep. I just had a revelation after having a long talk with Jeff and Chin on saturday. Hahaz.. lets see wat happens in the next 2 years.. Anywayz im at home now and im gonna rest.


The following song is for Denise (that is if she still reads my blog) hahaz... I think u understand the song...

"Home"

I've got a little red bow
And I bought it for you'
Cause I know you're not fair
I don't get it, oh well

And you color my skin
And the colors don't blend'
Cause I'm gonna get you
And your little dog too

There's a yellow brick road
That we follow back home'
Cause I know you can't wait
Your belligerent hate

There's no place like home
There's no place like home
Like home

I've, got a southern belle too
And ruby red shoes
With a body of straw
Are you sick of it all?

There's a man made of tin
With an oil can grin
And I'm gonna get you
And your little dog too

There's a yellow brick road
That we follow back home
And I know you can't wait
Your belligerent hate

There's no place like home
There's no place like home
There's a little white porch
And you wanted it so
Can you let me go down
To the end of the road
In the black and the white
A technicolorful life
Can I stand by your side?
We can make it alright

Like home'

Cause I'm home
There's a little white porch
And you wanted it so
Can you let me go down
To the end of the road
In the black and the white
A technicolorful life
Then another arrived
It's a cowardly lion

What I want from this world
What I wanna resolve
When I want you to stay
So I wash you away
I don't wanna be bold
I don't wanna be cold
I don't wanna grow old
I don't wanna go home

Sucker For The Moment

I'm a sucker for the moment
When things start to fall in place
Everybody keeps in shape and face
Anticipating a never come
Wondering why it will never come

So won't you tell all your friends
I'll put a gun to your head not mine
Stabyou inside til the outside
Push you down across the floor
draging your guts as they dry

No, all this ain't wishing thinking
We'll never know til we try
The moment comes and i'm suckered
Fell for it hook line and sinker

Sucker for the moment

Next To Nothing

Beneath this wave
I just can't take your breath away
You cut me down
You know I'll always be around
So now I wait
I know you'll live another day
Come and take my breath away
Look me straight in the face

Cause you know it's over
Growin' colder
I need something
Leave me next to nothing
All we ever wanted
I need something
Leave me next to nothing
Next to nothing

I cut you down
I know you'll always be around
So now you'll wait
I know you'll live another day
Come and take my breath away
Look me straight in the face

Suckers For The Moment

Pitfalls against the Son of Man
Never did He once falter
Shouldn't we then as children of God
Follow in His footsteps and bear

We are the age of the fearless
Strong and bold, foolish as can be
We are His images
But we fal unlike Him

We are suckers for the moment
Selfish as can be
We forget that Jesus died for me
Not I, Myself, only me

Suckered at the hands of the tempter
Believing in everything for ourselves
We need nobody but ourselves now
Not even God

The sky cries more than i do these days....

Today's my off day. Was supposed to get my guitar but no.... i knew something would be up... Woke up saw the rain and knew that today i would not be collecting my guitar and true enough when i called Lily told me that she forgot to place the order for me... WOW... hahaz... spent the day at home and trying to get Jeff and Sam out for a little chat tonite... hahaz... i doubt that will happen too... I'm gonna continue my Fifa 06...

I turn my hopes up to the sky
I'd like to know before i die
Memories will slowly fade
I lift my eyes and say
Come on, take me away
Come on, take me away

Happie Birthday Phildia!!!!!

Im back again... Feeling kinda melancholic as usual... went with my brother to kinokuniya to get his Lit book. Keeps doing the weirdest of things with the book. I got a book that i wanted. Screwtape letters. Wanna start my brain again after it being dead for so long and see if it will help me get out of this creative rut. ok... gonna let my brother sleep in peace now...

If I could find you now things would get better,
We could leave this town and run forever,
I know somewhere somehow we'll be together,
Let your waves crash down and take me away........
Take me away,
I want you to.......

Wow... Its Been That Long....

And finally i have decided to come back and start blogging again. 2005 has finally passed. Many things have happened and i thank God i havent died yet. I'm still in the midst of reconstruction. my shell is not back up and running yet and therefore still susceptible to a breakdown every once in a while. I'm gonna try to see if i can create something from the cell and make it into something i can use to bond people closer together. I'm gonna see if the boys want it or not.

Im gonna try as much as possible to write and update this thing i have.. Hahaz...


Take me away, I've got nothing left to say
Just take me away, Maybe its much better with You
It is isnt it?
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Written On 12th September I think....

How Many Roads Must A Man Walk Down?
To Find The Love and Know If Shes The One
My Head Is Filled With Questions
And No Answer To Anyone Of Them
Has Ever Brought Me A Single Iota Of Happiness
Except For One
The Answer Isnt Any Stupid Number
It Is Yes She Is The One
Undoubtedly, Unequivocally and Unabashedly Yes...
For One Second In My Whole Sad Little Blip Of Existence
I Felt Happy Because Of Her Existence
She Means The Whole World To Me
And I'm Not Willing To Let Her Go So Easily
And I Think I Might Have Blown It
With The One Person Who Really Gets To Me

For You? I think so....

This is what i gotta say not sure why
But i'm gonna say it anyway
What you feel is what you are
And what you are is beautiful
So take this time to sit back
Admire yourself for who you are
And remember that someone thinks
You are the most beautiful person he has ever met....
Take my breath away....

How Many Roads Must a Man Walk Down?

Long time no blog... Lol... busy and lazy and wanting to use e com at the wrong time ie: when little brother is using to talk to his legions of female friends.... Serious...

I have been thinking alot and mostly come up with nothing but illusions and nonsense in my head... If i have anything i will post it up... I have one now anywayz...

Ciaoz....