Best Mistake I've Ever Made

Dreaming of you
Holding me close to you
Wanting to believe its true
I held on for too long
I still missed you
Thought I could stop myself from feeling this way
Fate would have it
That was my mistake
Thinking of you makes me feel this way
I cannot help losing myself in your memories
Even if my heart should break
I'm so far down this way
I dont think i can ever get back again

Oh no look what you've done, You've made a fool of everyone...

The untainted cannot see
Tainted paths beyond the tree
To be blind is to be free:
Rid of all that superficiality
Die to me and die to them
Bring about the change within
So its been said so its been done
I came across this broken path and now, im done

Do You Know?

Do you know what it feels like loving someone who is in a rush to throw you away?

Greatly missed and truly hated
I have become what i most despise
I miss what i was love what i have become
And am the opposite of what is
Blending truth and lies
Suffocating soon in this silence
What have i become?
The tragedy of the century
Sweetest compulsion to echo my pain
Bringing out the hollows of my inner being
I am empty.

Full moon sways gently in the niight of one fine day

Loneliness

I cannot stand loneliness
I am so full of loneliness
It drags you down
It tears you apart
Especially when u see memories of the past
Heart aching feeling sad
Memories will never be better then they were
They were bad, sad and full of pain
Physical pain is bearable
Heartache is pure torture

Screaming Into The Heart Of Darkness

FWAAAAHHHH...........
Hate.. Love.. Life.. Die..
I Scream again tonight
Standing in this place at the brink of oblivion
I cant be mad now i brought this
Upon myself
I cant look back at the way it used to be
I cant look at myself
Streaming tears abhor the burning sensation
Inside i melt i slip away

Into oblivion i see
My life there sliping before me
You hindered me
But i blame myself

I scream i scream
I cry i cry
Without you i die inside
I fight i fight
the demons inside
I struggle cuz all wanted was you

All i wanted was you.....

Letting Go

Its Just a Feeling,
Like a bad memory that refuses to go away
Falling away from reality throught the throes of passivity
Got to get out got to get away
Take a chance at you
To fly forever in joys of me and you
Leave me my dreams
Leave me my deceit
Conceive the hatred and deny the love
Break the heart that will never love
What you going to do with this crying shame
The love you made rusted away and cried in pain

The Sun Still Sleeps

I look tonight i look tonight
Seething from the darkness that i hide
Moving out and moving in
Looking for whats right i see within

Outstretched arm outstretched arms
Reaching out to me that is inside
Loving me loving me
The only truth that i truly truly see

These nights, carried me
Waking through the hours
Looking for the light

These nights, carried me
Waking through the hours
Looking for the lights

The Sun still sleeps The sun still sleeps
Dream within , Awaken dreams
I love you i love you
The supreme notion of love awakens within me.

I Scream Tonight

Long hair Black eyes
Hypnotised Mesmerised
I can see the long time around
The short clock wound
Hey Yo Oh Oh
Hey Yo Uh Oh

Screaming Solos blinding sides
Meandering turns Endless lies
I scream tonight i scream tonight
Locking it down
Hey Yo Oh Oh
Hey Yo Uh Oh

The short term silence
Long term absence
Nobody wants it, helps it.

Crazy Little Thing Called Love

I dreamt of you today
I dreamt that you were getting married
I was in a monkey suit
Tears streamed down my face
Happy Sad would be the right thing to say

I took a picture with a dimly bright smile
Sang the prayers with big hearted cheer
I dreamt in that dream
We were together
We were getting married

I am disillusioned
Disillusioned and heartbroken
In tears i scream out your name
In pain i writhe in agony
In anguish i weep........

Sunkissed Flame

So far into the daylight
I remember the day
When we were young
Gentle in the wind
Quick in the sand
Cold, Obsolete
Broken and utterly destroyed
So far away
So far away

Charlie

Cure me of this sickness deep down inside
I am no more myself now and 10 years ago
Shaken to the bone when i was told
So many questions left unanswered

Tonight tonight i set my pain aside
Stretch out my hand and pull you in
Justify all my misgivings and pain
Bring you the feeling of faith and dispair

So pull me out tonight
Or i will pull you in
My world is shrinking and breaking
My weariness growing thin
I need you here tonight

Fade Out

I don't want to give my heart out
I just dont want to waste my time
Forget about those broken feelings
This little heart of mine

I just want to fade out of the picture
Remain plain out of sight
Nobody understands this feeling
I hide deep down inside

Bring out all my memories
Burn the ones of you
Walk back into the future
Walk away from you

Life dont get me nowhere
We'll all die someday
Bring me to the end
Will I be free one day?

Misery neverending
Misery so sad to see
Symphony all around thee
Despair forever I will be

Fade out in time
Disappear into oblivion
Looking through the glass
Watching time pass

It feels like forever
The life of lost love
Sorrowful cries
Numbness of the soul

Only Time Will Tell

Sometimes it gets lonely down here
Alone in the blue, in the midst of the alien cold
The view of your back
The trailing scent of you I miss
Obviously you dont see
I am trying to be

What its like to be alone when you're down
What its like when you want to scream out loud
What its like when you got nobody to hold
What its like to be so alone.

I am Deprived of the Little Things in life

Corrupt the embrace that warms me
Cold hard floors I slowly take liberties with
Exercise my right to disillusion
Begin my quest to fill my soul beyond
Conscious conscience is wearing thin
People irritate me
People refuse me
People HATE me
Stranger in a strange land i will be
Forever.

Cry My Lungs Out Spilling Blood Unto The Floor Of Oblivion

Flowing from the veins out into the open
The creation of dreams crushed in an instant
Hopes for a lifetime of love gone
Reasoning the blame on himself
Pushing away any semblance of rational thought
Crying for hope to become reality
Seeing things that are not always there
Jealousy kills the soul
Blatant longings heartfelt and broken
I loved and died the day you said goodbye...

Too Long... Too Long...

Its been so hard to describe
The neverending facts of life
The death of an oncoming dream
The birth of something without not within
Sensing the right from wrong
But indifference sets in
Nobody cares whats is the truth
I am I what are u not for me to decide
We are in the dumps you know it
The signs are eminent
Men die...

Spider Lillies

Have heart my dear, we are bound to be afraid
Even if its for a few days.
Creating a ripple in the splash of high waters
Effecting a change in the heart of mine
Maybe the thoughts of you have lingered on
Wake up heed the call, even if u cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside u here.

As if caring for you isn't enough, i have to contend with myself and one other
This head can only have one, you.
Placing the focus away, i have met a few.
Those three words, blind my thoughts, not enough
Fly by and burst through, why dont you
Imagination runs wild, attracted to the wild lillies around
Enough to burst into life a fire.

Filled with oft lonely thoughts, wild runnings and chasing dreams
Darkness and running all around
Lost inside my dreams but never lost in love
I've got wires all around me, going in and crawling out of my skin
Tears are making tracks down my face and yours
Got to get this through and clear of you
Hope is reflecting your eyes

You'll be alright my dear, i see it in your eyes
Confusion, sadness and cares of the world
Running down corridors and automatic doors
I'll get to you one day, I'll see this life through
Looking at the situation now.
You would never know
I miss you, but its different now

I am attracted to you and you
I'll find you somewhere in my mind
Show you how much i care.
Bring out this dream and seek the jealousy in me
One day leave behind my everything and feel winter's embrace
The bittersweet embrace of the one love I'll never have
Yours.

I confuse people, but dont be
I make people think, please dont
Enjoy it and leave it as that
I am not that hard to crack am I?

Sadly you took my smile away...

Everytime i think of you, i cannot help but feel a bout of blue
Saying maybe this what if that, hoping for fruition of something mutual
Cross referenced with the touch of an angel i falter
Promised to have and to hold, i am losing grip of you
Whoever said crushes won't ever last long?
The dumbfounded romance of the self upon individual
Feeling you when u are near, or have i got it all wrong?
Mustering the courage of a lion or even a Samuel
Not mattering and leaving it be, something will happen but it will not be me
Flutters the heart a mighty dance, maybe i really got it all wrong
Let the heart lead me on, questing for the one that is true to heart
The wait for the arrival of the fabled kiss of life
Lift the open hand and patiently determine if this is the one
Fall in step and bring about the night of uninhibited freedom

Find your Natural High

Sometimes it takes only that one thought to blot out what has been done
The need to resuscitate the once broken breathless insecurities
Contradiction of a melevolent account, can you read my mind?

Work Work....

Its been so so long since i last said something. My birthday has passed.. Im 21 now.. Sch has been interesting weird and busy. Life has suddenly become so busy. Joined Knightsfall jamming our way to an album.. hahaz.. Tired out as it is and waiting for something easier to come by.. Woohoo...