Written On 12th September I think....

How Many Roads Must A Man Walk Down?
To Find The Love and Know If Shes The One
My Head Is Filled With Questions
And No Answer To Anyone Of Them
Has Ever Brought Me A Single Iota Of Happiness
Except For One
The Answer Isnt Any Stupid Number
It Is Yes She Is The One
Undoubtedly, Unequivocally and Unabashedly Yes...
For One Second In My Whole Sad Little Blip Of Existence
I Felt Happy Because Of Her Existence
She Means The Whole World To Me
And I'm Not Willing To Let Her Go So Easily
And I Think I Might Have Blown It
With The One Person Who Really Gets To Me

For You? I think so....

This is what i gotta say not sure why
But i'm gonna say it anyway
What you feel is what you are
And what you are is beautiful
So take this time to sit back
Admire yourself for who you are
And remember that someone thinks
You are the most beautiful person he has ever met....
Take my breath away....

How Many Roads Must a Man Walk Down?

Long time no blog... Lol... busy and lazy and wanting to use e com at the wrong time ie: when little brother is using to talk to his legions of female friends.... Serious...

I have been thinking alot and mostly come up with nothing but illusions and nonsense in my head... If i have anything i will post it up... I have one now anywayz...

Ciaoz....

Conflicted

I'm not sure wat to write or say cuz i am out of stuff to... At least i'm out of stuf that i can put here... Others i'm not really sure i want to put here though i really want to... I'm weird its alright...

currently listenly to doom metal and liking wat im listening... slow and heavy... Oh yeah...


Someone swears his true love until the end of time, but love runs away....

Monotony is settling in...

I'm feeling quite sian.. I'm feeling out of sorts lately too... looks like my groove just might be coming back... rite........


Anybody wants to go to the Festival Of Praise with me? I dont think i got anyone to go with... sad...

Its For The Best

It takes more time than I've ever had,
Drains the life from me,
Makes me want to forget,
As young as I was,
I felt older back then,
More disciplined,
Stronger and certain,
But I was scared to death of eternity,
I was saved by grace,
But destroyed by naivety,
And I lied to myself,
And said it was for the best,

And now faith is replaced with a logic so cold
I've disregarded what I was,
Now that I'm older,
And I know much more than I did back then,
But the more I learn,
The more I can't understand,
And I've become content with this life that I lead,
Where I drink to much and don't believe in much of anything,
And I lie to myself,
And say it's for the best,

I'm moving forward,
But holding myself back,
And I'm waiting on something that will never come.

I'm moving forward,
But holding myself back,
And I'm waiting on something that will never come.

Happie Birthday Caron!!!!!

Today is a very special day, its my God-daughter's birthday and guess wat? I didnt know... I feel so so bad.. I'm so sorry Caron... I will make it up to u... Promise.. I jus got the note that u wrote me 2 weeks ago after the phone went dead.. I really hafta thank you so much for the prayers and encouragement you have given me for the past few months... I havent been the best of people lately but your encouragement was significant to me... I thank you from the bottom of my heart... Just call me whenever you have anything and i will try my best to be there.. No... i will be there for you...

I have found the peace

Been long time since i last wrote in...

God has given me peace to search for a purpose in Him... At least im not so sad anymore...

Rock Bottom and Still Digging

"Am I Wrong"

Well I talk Too much To myself
And I turn my back on my faith
It's like glass
When we Break
I wish no one in my place
And I've seen You don't need their seeds
When the cut goes in deep
And I'm lost in sleep
I can't stay In this place
I can't stand
When the room turns round
On my fate
You give no guarantees
There's no promise I can keep
I can't stand
I can't see my way I feel blind
On my feet I can't stay too long
Am I wrong?

Goodbye, lay the blame on luck
Goodbye, lay the blame on luck
Goodbye, lay the blame on luck
Goodbye, lay the blame on luck
Goodbye, lay the blame on luck
Goodbye, lay the blame on luck

I'm so tired Of my mood
And sleep comes With a knife, fork and a spoon
You're so pale In your face
You let life Get in your way
And I've seen You don't need their seeds
When the cut goes in deep
And I'm lost in sleep
Am I wrong?

Goodbye, lay the blame on luck
Goodbye, lay the blame on luck
Goodbye, lay the blame on luck
Goodbye, lay the blame on luck


Sadly... maybe i'm hanging unto nothing and i may just hafta say goodbye....
I'll still keep you in my heart forever.....

Broken

Do you care if i don't know what to say
will you sleep tonight or will you think of me
will i shake this off pretend its all okay
that there someone out there who feels just like me
there is

Those notes you wrote me
i've kept them all
I've given a lot of thought of how to write you back this fall
With every single letter in every single word
there will be a hidden message about a boy that loves a girl

Do you care if i don't know what to say
will you sleep tonight or will you think of me
will i shake this off
pretend its all okay that there's someone out there who feels just like me
there is

The Skies Will Cry The Blackest Tears Tonite

Hmmx... Im booking in tml... had a medical checkup at Aeromedical Centre... My heart is fine apparently... HAHAHAHA... Joke of the day.... Anywayz... Jocelyn, if you are reading this... HAPPIE BIRTHDAY!!!! Your are officially 19 this year... Enjoy it while it lasts... Comes only once in a lifetime... Gonna go pack my stuff now...


Get ready for the brimstone.....

Noraa....

Wanting More than I am showing

And so it is
Just like you said it would be
Life goes easy on me
Most of the time
And so it is
The shorter story
No love, no glory
No hero in her sky

I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...

And so it is
Just like you said it should be
We'll both forget the breeze
Most of the time
And so it is
The colder water
The blower's daughter
The pupil in denial

I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...

Did I say that I loathe you?
Did I say that I want to
Leave it all behind?
I can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind...My mind...my mind...
'Til I find somebody new

I dont think i ever will........

Save Me

Had a bad day, don't talk to me,
gonna ride this out,
My little black heart, breaks apart,
with your big mouth.

And I'm sick of my sickness
Dont touch me, you'll get this.
I'm useless, lazy, perverted,
and you hate me.

You can't save me,
You can't change me,
Well I'm waiting for my wake up call,
And everything, everything's my fault.

Went to the doctor, and I asked her,
to make this stop. (whoa)
Got medication, a new addiction,
Fucken thanks a lot.

Had to relapse, I'm outta rehab,
It ruined everything. (whoa)
So point your finger, at the singer,
He's in the pharmacy.

You can't save me,
You can't change me,
Well I'm waiting for my wake up call ,
and everything's my fault.

You can't save me,You can't blame me,
Well I'm waiting here to take a fall,
and everything, and everything's my fault.

And I'm a death threat haven't slept yet,
Baby wide awake at dawn.
Helmet bad boy, tell the tabloids,
everything's my fault.

Whoa whoa yeah, write it write it,
Whoa whoa yeah, write it write it,
Whoa Whoa everthing's my fault
,everthing's my fault.

I went to heaven, couldn't get it,
For what I had done.
I said forsake me, you said you're crazy
you were too much fun.

You can't save me,
You can't change me,
Well I'm waiting for my wake up call ,
and everything's my fault.

You can't save me,
You can't blame me,
Well I'm waiting here to take a fall,
and everything,everthing's my fault.

You can't save me,You can't change me,
You can't save me,You can't change me,
You can't save me,You can't change me,(everthing's my fault)
You can't save me,You can't change me,Everything's my fault.

I'm Your Stranger... Jump!

Im collecting my A level results today... Quite nervous now... leaving in 1/2 hrs time...

Been a long while since i blogged and too many things have happened in this period of absence and i dnu wanna talkl about it... Not now...

Only thing i can say is im busy in bunk writing 13 songs for myself... done with 5 alredi but still a long way to go.....


Goodbye.....

5/01/05 10.32 pm

It is night and i am alone
In the midst of the crowded bunk
Lights out has been called and its time to sleep
But i am here restless and awake
I tried to call but to no avail
Number busy was all I could see

Lying down on my bed with my phone beside me
I stay awake with the fragile hope that you might call me
Tell me how your day was, I want to know
Tell me all your troubles and your feelings, I want to know

It has already been 2 days since i heard the sweet sound that is your voice
I am starting to ponder if you are alright
I am getting worried that something might be wrong
Its been 45 minutes since i sent you a message
And this might just become another sleepless night

...

If only i could here your voice right now
Oh how it would just ease my troubled mind
Wish I could hold you just one time
If only I could see you right now
Just to thrill this little heart of mine
Wish I could read you just one time

So here's a rhyme for the lonely one
Maybe he will feel better inside
No one knows how pathetic he feels
To be so alone, sad and alone
Thinking about the days gone by
And his heart is too broken to cry

The day will come when everything's alright
We will run away and never say goodbye
We will share the joy falling in love can bring
And no one can tell us we are to young to know
Oh how much I love you so...

Anything

I will be there Always waiting
Waiting for you
To let me inside
Where your fire burns
In a city of angels
Just like a river rushing straight into the sea
I'm the one thing meant for you and you for me

Whatever you want
Whatever you need
Whatever it takes, I'll do anything

And as you sleep
Eyes to the window
I'm watching you dream
Well are you dreaming of me?
So why can't you see
You're all that matters
You know if this earth should crack
I'll be your solid ground
I will be there to catch you when you fall down

If I have to crawl
Get down on my knees
Whatever it takes,
I'll do anything

I'd take the stars right out of the sky for you
I'd end the world give you the sun, the moon
For all of time, forever loving you

Whatever you need
Whatever it takes,
I'll do anything
If I have to crawl
Get down on my knees
Whatever it takes,
I'll do anything

Back to Tekong...

spent time writeing stuff but i dun have time to put it down here right now so im just gonna put one only....



Outspoken is the mind that brings out thoughts
Trapped underneath the mass that is nothing
Knowing of the fullness of His Grace
It is never enough for his race
Proper conduct expected from him
Just deserts is deserved of him
Unchained thoughts of the one that breaks him
Provoking the negativities bursting through the seams
Knowing full well of His and his intentions
So similar yet so distant and inconsistant
Doubting his ability to Love like Him
Just wanting to be able to love
Yet he tries and hopes and prays to Him
Hoping He will one day grant His Grace to the one undeserving him
Yearning to see how the story goes

New Year has come and gone.....

Its been a year gone... Didnt really affect me at all... Cant seem to sense wateva everyone else is sensing... Im feeling very unbalanced now... Haha... army is boring and tough on the mind for me... Its ok i still love my country... Im feeling moodless... dun see the need to be happy...


The un-named feeling, takes me away

Take me away....