Understand

Why can't you understand what I feel inside
The desire to do things that are put to task
One desired spurned the other
Turns out events are truly of another
The need for one last hurrah
The bleak misery of denial
Absence of the.......

Reasons To Leave - AVA

A long awaited beginning
A pre desired outcome
Answers living like this for results
Praying for success over failure
For too Long
For too Long
All alone never more


Sing on, Play on


Rock on \m/

L.I.D

As I sit in here waiting for the world to turn back to the way it used to be
I discover that it has become meaningless for me
Trapped in the finality of being
It seems everything is about to end just when it is about to begin
To bid farewell to everything before the permanance sets in
Impossible to find, impossible experience
Impossible to Love

Memories

Sacrifice yourself and show me what is left
You take the breath right out of me
Hole where my heart should be
Tears in my eyes
I cry deep inside
I will hide it within
Nobody sees and nobody will know
You took my best and my entire all
Left nothing to me and broke it all
I love you but have nothing at all
In the end

Anyway You Want It

Frustrations abound when i think of you
It bleeds my heart through and through
Changes you make again and again
I think it may be time to move on
Until then I remain my own

You refuse to respond to my pleas
I am forced to take action my anxiety to ease
My hands are soaking in the blood of technology
Look in my eyes and tell me its time to move on

Push you through to my brink
I head in different directions
Aroused and confused
I tell myself this is wrong
Ask direction that point me to death
All because of you

Save Me

Made a mistake
Irreversible
Tried to form a relationship
Irreparable
Shattered hopes and broken dreams
This is how it feels to not believe
Facing up to what is inside your mind
Fill it up with dreams but all you seem to find
Empty as all the facets of your mind
Goodbye forever just fade away

Masked

Intentions hidden from plain sight
Atrocious schemes surface beyond the horizon
Uncover the sins of the past
Unearthing the wrongs of passion long gone
Bring upon the residue of motionless spitfire
And lay the blame on love
We are masked behind this veil
We are masked behind this shield

For a dream is only but a fleeting moment of feelings in this dumb little head

Looking back
Nothing can compare to what you mean to me
Nothing in this world is worth the trouble, the wait and the risk
I was willing to give you all and still am
For what lifts me up are not the angels in the sky
Nor the beauty of the natural world
But the thought of you in all the little precious moments we had together

Its been so long why is it again that I have to be reminded of you?
I just cannot forget what seems to be the bittersweet of my past
My past.

Why

Linda Liao reminds me of you
That beautiful face and that beautiful smile
though you were never there
I regret that I let you go
Crazy like me
You never did love
but in you
I found what love meant to me
Kissing you in my dreams
unsuspecting, the best in my dreams
Only in my dreams

Liberate

Beeter than I you and me
We have became puppets of this time
Struggling to portray the image to the sightless
Turning ourselves into creatures that have become blind
Insude the fire we burn
The unquenching desire for liberation
Steal a cry we deem freedom mine

The day that never comes

I am drawn towards and away
from you
I cannot stop myself moving forwards and backwards
from you
I love you and I dont deny it
This crushing secret that keeps you away
I am in flames
All I want is to see you in all that you are
All I want is to be with you
It all seems so far right now
I need you, This I know

You And I

The longing is long gone
I have seen too many, I have felt the same
I think of that, I think of You
I have masked that thing about you
I think of you less often now
I barely seem to even care
I must be distracted, I must be looking away
Yes I am, I cant help it but I know I'll miss you again

Months......

Trapped inside this shell
A monster lurks, ready to pounce
On every mistake, the faults that i make
To see me fall

Ignorance is not a reason
Put the blame on me
I cant see these eyes, they make me sick
They make me cry

We are the people all screaming to be heard
We are together now all hurting deep inside
You are the one you are the reason
You steal my life away

Best Mistake I've Ever Made

Dreaming of you
Holding me close to you
Wanting to believe its true
I held on for too long
I still missed you
Thought I could stop myself from feeling this way
Fate would have it
That was my mistake
Thinking of you makes me feel this way
I cannot help losing myself in your memories
Even if my heart should break
I'm so far down this way
I dont think i can ever get back again

Oh no look what you've done, You've made a fool of everyone...

The untainted cannot see
Tainted paths beyond the tree
To be blind is to be free:
Rid of all that superficiality
Die to me and die to them
Bring about the change within
So its been said so its been done
I came across this broken path and now, im done

Do You Know?

Do you know what it feels like loving someone who is in a rush to throw you away?

Greatly missed and truly hated
I have become what i most despise
I miss what i was love what i have become
And am the opposite of what is
Blending truth and lies
Suffocating soon in this silence
What have i become?
The tragedy of the century
Sweetest compulsion to echo my pain
Bringing out the hollows of my inner being
I am empty.

Full moon sways gently in the niight of one fine day

Loneliness

I cannot stand loneliness
I am so full of loneliness
It drags you down
It tears you apart
Especially when u see memories of the past
Heart aching feeling sad
Memories will never be better then they were
They were bad, sad and full of pain
Physical pain is bearable
Heartache is pure torture

Screaming Into The Heart Of Darkness

FWAAAAHHHH...........
Hate.. Love.. Life.. Die..
I Scream again tonight
Standing in this place at the brink of oblivion
I cant be mad now i brought this
Upon myself
I cant look back at the way it used to be
I cant look at myself
Streaming tears abhor the burning sensation
Inside i melt i slip away

Into oblivion i see
My life there sliping before me
You hindered me
But i blame myself

I scream i scream
I cry i cry
Without you i die inside
I fight i fight
the demons inside
I struggle cuz all wanted was you

All i wanted was you.....

Letting Go

Its Just a Feeling,
Like a bad memory that refuses to go away
Falling away from reality throught the throes of passivity
Got to get out got to get away
Take a chance at you
To fly forever in joys of me and you
Leave me my dreams
Leave me my deceit
Conceive the hatred and deny the love
Break the heart that will never love
What you going to do with this crying shame
The love you made rusted away and cried in pain

The Sun Still Sleeps

I look tonight i look tonight
Seething from the darkness that i hide
Moving out and moving in
Looking for whats right i see within

Outstretched arm outstretched arms
Reaching out to me that is inside
Loving me loving me
The only truth that i truly truly see

These nights, carried me
Waking through the hours
Looking for the light

These nights, carried me
Waking through the hours
Looking for the lights

The Sun still sleeps The sun still sleeps
Dream within , Awaken dreams
I love you i love you
The supreme notion of love awakens within me.

I Scream Tonight

Long hair Black eyes
Hypnotised Mesmerised
I can see the long time around
The short clock wound
Hey Yo Oh Oh
Hey Yo Uh Oh

Screaming Solos blinding sides
Meandering turns Endless lies
I scream tonight i scream tonight
Locking it down
Hey Yo Oh Oh
Hey Yo Uh Oh

The short term silence
Long term absence
Nobody wants it, helps it.