Sometimes I Just Wanna................

Been a couple of days.. hahaz... Totally tiring its been doing very random stuff be it outside or at work... Constantly doing work cant sleep right and my clocks going heywire... Dumb phone cracked and i dont even know why... Talk about a bittersweet day. One moment it was good then i just died when i saw my phone.... Past few days have been good too.. Hahaz.. met up with Lynn after sooo long, totally enjoyed myself. Went to liquid kitchen... Hahaz.. its like the fourth time in a month.. talk about overkill. Haiz.. Feeling tired and slightly frustrated.. Nvm.. Til next time...

140506 0322hrs

The time of facing one's demons is here
I stand facing mine,
I can only face them alone
The choice i have at hand is clear to the mind
The heart cannot and does not want to accept what is fact
Holding onto even a single thread

Believing in one's own mistake is one mistake too far
The mouth cannot express what the heart and mind truly mean
The contradictions are non-apparent to me
But the confusion will ruin even the best of us

So the demon towers over me
Awaiting for the obvious to happen
For the right opportune to fall me
The straight is tough but i will walk

I fear not because i know i can trust
I will make the decision, I will place my faith
But the bankrupt will find the means to love again
Invest his time into something he hopes will be fruitful
Dig deep and search I only find fear and weariness
Something still does not disappear

Silence still evades me

I am thinking of two
Less of one more of you
Carrying a rational open notion
I can't stop thinking of you......

Sometimes Your Brain Just Doesn't Seem to help at all....

Hellooo... Had a fun time last friday... Cooked spagetti for everyone.. Had fun shopping with Esther and Henry had fun talking to everybody and i was labelled a bimbo for exclaiming dat i wanna go shopping out loud... hahaz... Hung out with bryan david and evelyn after dat at siglap... Sat was all blur though... Lol.. ended up eating at marina south... Had soccer on sunday... The longest time since i last played.. Like at least a yr ago.. Whoo... today was a silly yet peaceful work day.... and tml i will be going to see the specialist at TTSH.. slack again.. My leave is approved... GOOD... I cant get this song out of my head... its by Olivia called Make It Mutual

Make It Mutual

A quiet moment by myself on the beach
A sweet feeling that is swirling in me
Its delirious

Now that's a sugar rush
My heart is beating oh so fast
And i hope i dont fall into deep too fast

There's no need to rush
We can take our time
Let it go the natural way
We begin as friends
And who knows what
Where this could be taking me



In this nice cool breeze
Yes i am all at ease
When I gush
And ths sweet feeling comes to me
Can't deny can't lie can't really face the truth
And i wonder if you're feeling the same way too



You know what i would like?
I'd like to get to know you more
Make that mutual
Boy, you know you wanna know me too

This is how you make me feel
When you're here i feel your vibe
And i hope i don't fall into deep too fast

You're not the type
Who'll rush into things
And let it slip away
Yeah, i like your type
Caught up in this ride
Its kinda silly but i'll say

Chorus


Have fun ppl.. i wrote something 2 nights ago.. Putting it up too...

I just bought 2 cds.. And got myself poor... Alas temptation...

Wat a tiring day yesterday... Had to sit out 2 wars in a day... major ones as well, one in the morning and one in the afternoon... Office politics at its ugliest.. Cant stand arguments, they make me feel dizzy... The skys were threatening to kill as well while i was on my way home... Today i finally registered for bike lessons... 1st lesson 26th may... didnt know there were dat many ppl learning bike... Work was weird, so was the day... Went shopping for 2 cds... wanted to buy only Red Hot Chilli Peppers but saw Olivia's aka Li Ting's cd... then bought it without really considering how poor i am... hahahaz... So i guess its time to scrimp and save... Cant wait for friday.. so excited... cell outing hahaz.. never felt like this in awhile...


Out of the ground I rise to grace
Nobody knows it's just a phase
Help me I'm out of breath again
Nobody knows somewhere to make it go away



But when the comforter is come, whom i will send unto you from the Father
even the spirit of truth, which proceedeth from the Father, He shall testify of Me
John 15:26

This day is..... an ordinary day......

Wat a day... I'm at home... hahaz... got a day off... whee... I'm still sick.. Have been sick since labour day... Ack.... Im slowly getting used to being called shalom cell... But i alredi love this cell group.. And I'm looking forward to having more to do with them and know them more... Anywayz... i love today as well... its a perfect ordinary day... 8th may.. has a nice ring to it...


080506

The quest for silence is a contempt to my head
The mind thinks what the heart cannot stop
The mind thinks what the heart cannot want
The heart wants what the mind cannot force
The world of contradictions in one body
Thinking one but saying another
Saying one but thinking of another
The question of forget and regret roll into one
And from that one, many thoughts come upon
me on this night and early morn
A time of great joy and great mourn
080506 2.00 am
Silence evades me
I am thinking of two
You remembered You didnt
Not yet anyway......