Its For The Best

It takes more time than I've ever had,
Drains the life from me,
Makes me want to forget,
As young as I was,
I felt older back then,
More disciplined,
Stronger and certain,
But I was scared to death of eternity,
I was saved by grace,
But destroyed by naivety,
And I lied to myself,
And said it was for the best,

And now faith is replaced with a logic so cold
I've disregarded what I was,
Now that I'm older,
And I know much more than I did back then,
But the more I learn,
The more I can't understand,
And I've become content with this life that I lead,
Where I drink to much and don't believe in much of anything,
And I lie to myself,
And say it's for the best,

I'm moving forward,
But holding myself back,
And I'm waiting on something that will never come.

I'm moving forward,
But holding myself back,
And I'm waiting on something that will never come.

Happie Birthday Caron!!!!!

Today is a very special day, its my God-daughter's birthday and guess wat? I didnt know... I feel so so bad.. I'm so sorry Caron... I will make it up to u... Promise.. I jus got the note that u wrote me 2 weeks ago after the phone went dead.. I really hafta thank you so much for the prayers and encouragement you have given me for the past few months... I havent been the best of people lately but your encouragement was significant to me... I thank you from the bottom of my heart... Just call me whenever you have anything and i will try my best to be there.. No... i will be there for you...