Maybe im just clinically depressed over nothing...

Hello.... hahaz... u came over today... seriously hoped u enjoyed urself... cuz i know i havent been a very good host.... Hope u liked the fried rice i re-fried and the noodles i cooked... Hahaz... haf fun... Thanks for coming...



Infinite dreams are made of these:
You
You
You
You
Only You...



By Noraa

Thank You

Hey.... This is a shout out to u ( u know who u are )

Thank you for your house that we could study in
Thank you for the jokes u made
Thank you for making me laugh
Thank you for asking if i wanted lunch
Thank you for wanting lunch urself
Thank you for letting me walk with you to get more food
Thank you for letting me cook for you
Thank you for feeding me while i cook for you
Thank you for letting me eat with you
Thank you for letting me invite you to a trip to KL
Thank you for letting me wash up for you
Thank you for teaching me macro-economic problems
Thank you for touching my stubble
Thank you for tickling me
Thank you for letting me play your guitar
Thank you for sleeping so i could watch you in silence and smile
Thank you for seeing me off at the bustop
Thank you for everything i have not mentioned
Thank you for just being you
Thank you for spending time with me

Thank you


By Noraa

It Doesnt Realli Matter Now Does It?

Run
Live To Fly
Fly To Live
Do Or Die
Wont You Burn
Live To Fly
Fly To Live
Aces High.....

Maybe its time to go somewhere else
Im stuck here in this little house
Lethargic and truly unwilling to move
But realli i go wanna go and booze
Dat doesnt realli matter does it?
Seeing I might not get to do it
But still i realli have to go
I have to go to church now.....

This is the somewhere in nowhere
Trying to be something dat aint nothing
Moving to flying to crashing
Buring and Dying and Crying
Seething and Teething no Soothing
Lets Dance......

Iron out the creases of life
Wash away the stains of misery
Climb up to the highest point and jump
Swim to the lowest depths to burn
Look for a decent gun to shoot
Seek The peak to stop breathing
Search for the darkness so hiddwn within

I can be a heavy metal player now cant i?

By Noraa

Past few entries have been inspired from a few songs but written from the heart.....


By Noraa

I dare not hurt myself
Fearing there is no pain
The reality is numb
The time has finally come

Wat have i become?
I ask you my dearest friend
Everything i know goes away in the end
And i would give it all
Abandon this pile of thrash
I will let you down
I will make me hurt

I wear this crown of thorns
Upon this chair of lies
Full of myself
Full of brokeness
I dont wanna repair
Across this space of time
The feelings would never fade
You are still right there
And i am still right here

Wat have i become?
I ask you my dearest friend
Everyone i know goes away in the end
And I would give it all
Lying pile of dirt
I would let you down
I would make me hurt

If i could start again
A million miles away
I would kill myself
I would find a way

By Noraa

Dreams

The dreams that begin to pry my reality apart
It within the love of my heart
The nightmare begins when i start to wake
Everlasting the elements of which i quake
In fantasies i seek my solace
My soul can never be this honest
In truth this dream cannot last
In lies all i have to hold fast
This life has soon bid thee farewell
And soon I will bid all farewell
Understand that all i wanted was wasted years
Make a point to see how this life will end without tears
The mere existence of this shell proves i cannot gain
The reincarnation of nightmares again

By Noraa

I Would Die For You

I cant believe this now
This aint wat i planned
I lived and died now
I just cant understand
With all the love i have for you
I'd die just to be with you
Oh my soul's the price to be with you

Oh how i would love you
The pain just wont go away
Oh how I need you
You are always so far away
I would cry for you
Leaving myself to blame
I would die for you
I would give up everything


By Noraa.............

Bother

Wish I was too dead to care
If indeed I cared at all
Never had a voice to protest
So you fed me shit to digest
I wish I had a reason;
My flaws are open season
For this, I gave up trying
One good turn deserves my dying

Wish I'd died instead of lived
A zombie hides my face
Shell forgotten with its memories
Diaries left with cryptic entries


And you don't need to bother
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on
I won't let go 'til it bleeds

You don't need to bother
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on
I'll never live down my deceit


Noraa Chan.....

I Wanna Know...

Ok... so God didnt give me wat i wanted..... who cares.... just disappointed i wont go to prom on 9th Dec... will be slping my second nite at tekong.... too bad for Aaron Chan there... Always getting the bad stuff in major areas of life... Not wat i want God... who cares.... not bout me no more issit? Who gives a shit load...... Im truly disappointed with myself.... So many things to do God has given me just 2 weeks to settle things... So God would have some fun knowledge about wat i would be doing while i have yet any idea... Haf fun God... I can onli study now... hahaz... look forward to having much physical activity at Singapore's best slimming centre... I hope to get as thin as i wanna be and not get recognised when i get back.... hahaz... jus hoping onli but will try...

Ok... so God wun let me haf a later enlistment... So let me haf wat is most dear o me... come on... u can do it... hahahaz.... rite.......... realli dear stuff i love to lose... used to it alredi so haf fun... seriously... so haf fun and enjoy.... i know u will.... Im only halfway done and i have run out of words to say... guess i'll just say it another day or maybe in afew hours...


I dun wanna tell anyone im going in Dec 8th... Im telling ppl here now... see who can actually remember or bother... so sue me... i dun care anymore.... I got to know yesterday morning and i didnt tell pretty much the whole world...


By a pretty weird feelinged Noraa / Aaron rite now...

Why?

A balancing act that is tough to follow
An action that words wont swallow
An environment of darkness looming
A justified rage of emptiness within
A parallel universe where one may breathe easy
A helpless situation that has driven me crazy
A time where love doesnt go noticed
A time where insanity might just be bliss
A cry to the sky for deliverance so greatly found
A painful solace i seek for within the ground
Here lies Aaron Chan, sold to the army on the 8th of december 2004


Why do i have answers to things i dont wanna know...


By Noraa

Sleeping Is Always Bliss

I just woke up an hour ago.... Slept from 3 til then... Didnt sleep the nite before when i went with Jeff Chin and Boon to catch Yesterday Once More and 1130 and stayed out at Tampines til morning.... Hiong man... We talked lots of stuff.... Lots of it.... Good to have fellowship even if it means getting no sleep.... And yes... Sleeping is Bliss.... Sleeping is always bliss cuz dreams are fun.... The coming days are just gonna get worse and i hafta do something about it before my dying day...... I seriously hope predictions by friends are true.... seriously hope so....



I wake from a nightmare now
In the day it haunts me
It slowly tears me apart
With dreams of a distant love
I'm a wandering satellite



By Noraa

I Will Wait For You

I just finished watching a show on channel U... It is a very famous old movie starring Leon Lai... I think its called love in the city... After watching the show i cant help but feel sad at Leon Lai's life... Going one whole big round just realising the love of his life is still the love of his life... Waiting and waiting... never stop waiting.... Hey... u know wat? I'll be like leon Lai... I'll still be waiting for you......


I'll be waiting forever and a day
Only for You
My Only One


By Noraa

Lord forgive your humble creation for he is not worthy...

Lord forgive me for I have sinned
I have seen the err in my ways
You have given so much for me yet I did not appreciate
Lord I kneel before You to seek Your forgiveness and Your mercies
You are the God of wonders
You gave when I did not deserve
No amount of words can express my gratefulness and thankfulness in my heart
Hallelujah to the King of kings
Hallelujah to the Lord God almighty

Let my life now be like a love song and an act of worship onto You O Lord
Let everything I do be pleasing to You
Let my every breath praise You forever
Forever and wholly onto You
In the name of our Lord and saviour Jesus Christ
Amen


By Noraa

The Best 2hrs 16mins and 58 seconds of my life...

ok.... I just spent 2 hrs 16 mins and 58 seconds talking on the phone with a friend.... Hey friend... u want me to name you? hahahaz..... ok... im still excited about the long chat.... man... rarely am i so happy.... But hey.... i dont care..... its the best time i ever had........ Im so happie... so very happie..... HAHAHAHAHAZ...... even tml sch isnt giving me a headache... im meeting my friend tml to study... so happie.... hahahahaz.....


2:16:58
oh yeah......


By Noraa

Killswitch Engage - Time To Scream and be merry...

Went out for dinner with Jeff and Chin.... yuki yaki at cineleisure.... interesting place.... Had fun there.... Jeff is a natural when chatting up girls... jus a natural..... dats why he is the buaya king....
Went to HMV after that and both on impulse a cd by Killswitch Engage.... metal on the brink of death but nice... impressed by the first song already when i sampled it... goodbye 25 bucks hello cd.... hahaz... listening to it now.... not bad....


Ever wonder how people can just think that maturity has something to do with age.....
I dare say i was already put through the phase of being a thinking person way before i was suppose to think like one... This is why i always tell ppl out there i feel as though i am 81 yrs old and not 18.... I am seriously weighed down.... The saving grace of God helps.... i think im gonna get more aggressive as i age... signs are showing when Jeff is asking me not to be violent.... Older judgemental people are seriously pissing me off.... Please dont judge me or i just might kill... hahaz.... rite...... Please stone urself before stoning anybody else.... dumb adults..... i have to pray i will not become like them when i get older...... or i just might kill myself....
killswitch Engage is nice....


Its all about the Why and the How


When my pain is my pain
And Yours is too.....


By Noraa

I so wanna Jio u out.......

Hello..... I attended my cousin's wedding yesterdae... hahaz... Has been quite awhile since i attended anyones wedding.... The feeling i have now compared to the past is different... I used to think about the food i was gonna eat... Now i think about all sorts of mature wierd stuff like the way i walk, dress, the way i talk... hahaz... and my relatives seem to think i cant hold my liquor... I drank onli 6 full glasses of red wine... nothing much wat.... Wateva... i think i can beat them flat... And the wierdest was dat i suddenly thought about my own wedding... Hahaz.... was quite interesting... I think i will jus ask Jeff to be my emcee.... He can do his Jay Chou there...... Ok now is time to study real hard hahaz... rite... study... must study or die... wanna go Uni... must... study..... argh... hahahahahaz...... I'm so preoccupied with something else... hahaz......


I dont care how long....
I so wanna Jio You out......


By Noraa

Wow........

What Famous Leader Are You?
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Hahaz... this is funny...... Im like Abraham Lincoln......