Dumb people that sabo us all...

Irresponsibility. Something that i hate most. Something that i try my best to improve on for myself because i know it will affect people around. ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hello.. people.. wake up.. There is no point trying to cover your own ass. YOU people are a disappointment. Do not commit to something that u end up not being able to commit to. YOU GIVE PEOPLE ALOT OF PROBLEMS. I cannot stand it when people who are not involved get dragged in to do your work. I cannot stand it when you are told something simple to do and you end up being very very ineffectual by saying 'oh, im so busy with my stuff i cant do this, i cant do that....' blah blah blah. IF YOU CANT DO IT THEN DONT COMMIT TO DOING IT IN THE FIRST PLACE. STUPID or what? No brains? No cow sense. Wake up larhz. Anything else would just be vulgar and an extreme waste of time.

By God, I am a FREE man... Call me MISTER

ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD LOHZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.....

I have finished the 2 years of nonsense that is the army. The 2 years of time wasted seeing hoe the stupid govt plans your life and screws is up and how i screw it back with them... Stupid places filled with stupid people... I AM DONE WITH IT ALL... YAY...

I am free... Call me Mister... HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAZ......

She was beauty personified.

Whilst I see you still do not have the time to update, I shall do the honours for you, especially since today is one of those awesome days to read blogs and blog. Shall tell you more about the blogs I read today next time. Some are incredibly crap-like, some are a little more intellectual, yet still crap-like all the same. Its not difficult to come across blogs with substance these days, but it still is difficult to come across those which are influential for the good of mankind.

I planned to post some random pictures I took with Jackson today, but I decided against it, because your blog looks better without colourful photos which totally make no sense whatever.

Since my girlfriend Charlene will be a working woman for the next couple of weeks, means that shopping dates are delayed/cancelled. Haha. I never really enjoyed shopping. But now that I know exactly what I want, I have the undying need to go shopping. (I have never said that before) Considering my folks haven't been in town for the past few weeks, I have been such a good girl, the only place where my money seems to be going to is food and cab fares. Its a terrible loss, I know. I have plans on going Queensway and getting myself that awesome pair of Puma shoes, of course after visiting the Puma outlet at Heeren (I suppose Heeren's is more up-to-date than the Queensway designs I saw previously). After which, I need to hunt for more clothes to wear in light of the approaching Festive Season. Seeing that I haven't really been shopping for a whole year, I think it is time to get some new clothes. Hais.

Now, wasn't that a disgusting paragraph? But please note whatever I have said is, in fact, true. I dislike people who blog about their shopping sprees or how they need to satisfy their shopaholic tendancies. And that paragraph is merely the tip of the iceburg of shopping rubbish-ity people blog about. Wake up your idea lah people, get a life. Blogging about these things only add on to the heaps of internet garbage already available in such a public domain.

Moving on, I am indeed looking forward to a new school year. Actually, not really. Not that I want to continue slacking at home and having lots of "me-time", also not that I despise the idea of studying, but, I just don't want to be put into that new unfamiliar environment. Don't get me wrong though. I might be an introvert, but I welcome change, and I adapt to change quickly and I like making the best out of it. But that's a totally different issue which I am presently too lazy, or rather, can't be bothered to go into now.

My ears are rejecting certain kinds of music now. And suddenly my entire iTunes playlist doesn't seem to appeal to me. In such circumstances, it's best to just switch it off. *presses the little X button* Much better, silence, is good for your soul. Hais, just realised it's 10.17pm and I missed Ghost Whisperer on Channel 5. Oh well, I can always find something more fulfilling to do.

I suddenly crave for a delicious Subway meal. *pauses to ponder about something else* Right, anyway, I think I'm getting tired of blogging now. I need to do something else before I go mad.

Denise Cheong

Jay Chou, you is rocks.

I figured that it is time to give this blog a little revivement (if there's such a word) and rejuvination (??).

Is it WRONG to miss your ex-husband?
Yes.
Is it wrong that
you're jealous because your husband went on a honeymoon with his evil "wife"?
Yes. Because she IS his wife.
Is it wrong to divorce your
current husband because you want your previous husband back?
Yes.
Is it wrong that your ex-husband has another girlfriend now?
No. Because you dumped him first.
Is it wrong that you're
planning to kill your current husband's "wife"?
Yes.

The truth is revealed! And yet I still don't get it. Aaron, boy you must be looking forward to ORD, which is in like, a few weeks time I suppose? Your vegetable days are merely beginning! O levels ended earlier than I anticipated, and suddenly I've got quite a lot of free time to do useless good-for-nothing things. I suppose that's not good. My parents are away for 2 weeks, and suddenly I have more freedom than ever. Planning to INITIAL D around the carpark with my reckless cousin. And yes, with my dad's car. HAHAHAH. The only problem with that is that we don't know how to reverse park. So we're probably going to park head first. My dad probably won't notice the difference when he comes back, unless he takes a photo and realises that the car moved 2 inches, or rather, is parked the other way around. Aaron, faster stop me.

It is a lovely Monday morning, sunshine after rain, the beginning of a beautiful day. Maybe that's because I'm getting something brand new, black, shiny, sleek and handsome today. :)

That's all for now. Enjoy your last few weeks of working for the SAF and have a God-inspired day ahead!

The one and only,
Denise Cheong.

I LOVE LITERATURE.

IMPACT OF THE HEADMASTER ON KRISHNA.

The headmaster initially strikes Krishna as a mentally unsound and an eccentric man. Upon the first time of meeting the headmaster, Krishna already had an indifferent impression of the Headmaster. This is evident from "He struck me as an extraodrinary man." The headmaster also planted a deep interest and curiosity in Krishna then. Krishna wanted to know more about him, as seen in "I found him more and more fascinating." Krishna desired to draw closer to him, finding him as a very intriguing character. Krishna also believed that he was about to make "a profound contact in life" through the headmaster.

Later in the text, Krishna is exposed to the background and further insights of the headmaster, especially after knowing that the headmaster runs his own school for children, under his "Leave Along System". Krishna then found this system very attractive as it was far different than the British education system that he so strongly detests. This is evident from "This education has reduced us to a nation of morons, strangers to our own culture, camp followers of another culture, feeding on leavings and garbage." In contrast, the Leave Alone System doesn't spoon-feed or discipline the students excessively, very unlike the system in Albert Mission College. This is indeed a refreshing contrast to Krishna's life. Upon seeing the passion the headmaster has for his school, Krishna is drawn towards the school, which emphasizes on the importance of childhood, which is spontaneous and natural, free from rationalism, religion and other systems of thought, which Krishna later realises that that indeed is his real purpose in life. The headmaster believes in working off "the curse of adulthood" and to "speak plainly, without the varnish of the adult world". From examples like these, Krishna finally realises that that is what he has been trying to escape from, the "false education" in his college, and finally leaves the college to be a teacher in the headmaster's school, finally satisfying his "innermost aspirations".

Krishna is also often seen in awe of the headmaster's outlook in life and enthusiasm in teaching the children at his school. The headmaster seems always happy and at peace (something which Krishna has long desired), despite his dysfunctional family, consisting of his unreasonable wife and "wild" children. The headmaster seems to have failed miserably in his role as a father in upbringing his own children, yet he puts his entire life's purpose and his very existance in taking care of the children in his school, which is very ironic in fact. However, the headmaster does not let his family affect him in his aim in educating the children in his school, partly because he thought he knew the exact hour of his death. Other than that, he was a satisfied man, leaving his wife, children and neighbourhood to live at his school, focusing on attaining a genuine lifestyle, his commitment to living the truth of what he truely believes in. This is evident in "I strictly want to live according to my own plan of living and not subordinate it for anybody's sake." Krishna later on adopts this idea of a more genuine lifestyle and resigns from his job at the college.

Krishna would never have decided to resign from his job if it weren't for the headmaster. At one point, he thought of giving up, when he said "One works for money.. said I in my sober cynicism." However, seeing the headmaster being so headstrong in his life, Krishna decides to discard the importance of money, to let go of his child Leela in seeing that "She must have her own life" and seeks "an inner peace" and a more harmonious existance in working at the headmaster's school. Krishna also finds much "delight and enlightenment" in teaching the children. From this I can see that through very subtle encounters with the headmaster, the headmaster indeed helped Krishna rediscover life's purpose.

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WHA. I CAN'T EVEN REACH 5 PARAGRAPHS. CAN FILL TWO SIDES OF FOOLSCAP PAPER OR NOT!? This essay needs to be improved within 24 hours.

I hope the headmaster is tested. :)

Yours sincerely,
Denise CHEONG

the Cheong-san one-man regime is finally here.

The NK Story

"Flee Aaron, FLEE! WMD is commiinng..!"

*KABOOM*

ALARM signal is being played island-wide. You duck under the table for cover. "WHAT TO DO? WHAT TO DO?!" You wait anxiously, chewing your fingernails off. You start freaking out and burst into profuse sweating.

*KABOOM*

You scream.

You are squatting, under your table made of sheer cheap wood, in your brand new shabby apartment you just rented along macpherson road, shivering in fear of the square-jawed North Koreans. You have no radio, "I should have listened to the SCDF when they told me to buy one." You curse upon your apparent unreadiness. You wait, and wait, in painful anticipation of the ALL CLEAR SIGNAL.

Then, in the dead, still silence you reside in, you hear footsteps..

-TO BE CONTINUED-

NAOMI VICE (sneak preview)

14 october - tragedy. she stole my true love away. why naomi, why.
miyagi is mine. but because he is yours first, that's why he must celebrate birthday for you. but be wary my dear naomi, for i will come looking for you, in your darkest memory. because you know, and i know, that he's not the one for you. miyagi is mine.
so naomi, don't fear the nights and the bitter cold, because both you and i know why i'm there. self-deception is easy. but you can't fool me, naomi. not now, not ever. so give back what doesn't belong to you.

stealing is a sin, didn't you hear?

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managed to dig out these stories and editted them a bit. well, look forward to more stories coming your way! for now, take care and huan ying, enjoy. =\ (whatever that means.)

signing out,
Cheong-san.

2 more months to ORD!!!!!!!

Some people live their dreams
Some people close their eyes
Some people´s destiny
Passes by

There are no guarantees
There are no alibis
That´s how our love must be
Don´t ask why

It take´s some time
God knows how long
I know that I can forget you

As soon as my heart stops breakin´
Anticipating
As soon as forever is through
I´ll be over you

Remembering times gone by
Promises we once made
What are the reasons why
Nothing stays the same

There were the nights
Holding you close
Someday I´ll forget them

As soon as my heart stops breakin´
Anticipating
As soon as forever is through
I´ll be over you

As soon as my heart stops breakin´
Anticipating
Someday I´ll be over you

As soon as my heart stops breakin´
Anticipating
Someday I´ll be over you

As soon as my heaaah...
(As soon as my heart stops breakin´ Anticipating)
I'll be over You

Maybe......... Maybe Not......

I Look At You You Look At Me (You Can't Help It You're Feeling Butterflies)
Its obvious, We have Chemistry (I think I know it cuz it feels so right)
Girl I wanted so long to know
Now Your telling me you gotta let it go (Dont Tell Me I have to start all over again)
I Never thought that this day would come (This is somthing that i've wanted in my life)
I realize that you're the one (and you're telling me its time to say goodbye)
To Put this out of my heart It ain't gonna change
So it shouldn't be so easy to walk away (You feel it I feel it lets not be tense)


Baby, I Don't Know What Love Is Maybe I'm A Fool
I Just Know What I'm Feeling And It's All Because Of You
Don't Tell Me I Don't Know I Want The Truth
Cuz They Call It We Call It You Call It I Call It Love

It's so clear for you to see (dont let anybody tell you what to do)
Why they can't they just let us be happy (i dont want to find somebody new)
If you know what's real in your heart
Then dont let them tear us apart (Cuz you feel it I feel it Lets think this through)

Baby, I Don't Know What Love Is Maybe I'm A Fool
I Just Know What I'm Feeling And It's All Because Of You
Don't Tell Me I Don't Know I Want The Truth
Cuz They Call It We Call It You Call It I Call It Love

We Have a bond thats unbreakable And its not time to let it go
And now that we know its real
We are going to let it show To the whole world
That I'm yours forever and you're my girl

Baby, I Don't Know What Love Is Maybe I'm A Fool
I Just Know What I'm Feeling And It's All Because Of You
Don't Tell Me I Don't Know I Want The Truth
Cuz They Call It We Call It You Call It I Call It Love

You take the breath right out of me. You left a hole where my heart should be

Breath

I see nothing in your eyes, and the more I see the less I like.
Is it over yet, in my head?

I know nothing of your kind, and I won't reveal your evil mind.
Is it over yet? I can't win.

So sacrifice yourself, and let me have what's left.
I know that I can find the fire in your eyes.
I'll throw it all away, get away, please.

You take the breath right out of me.
You left a hole where my heart should be.
You got to fight just to make it through,
'cause I will be the death of you.

This will be all over soon. Pour salt into the open wound.
Is it over yet? Let me in.

So sacrifice yourself, and let me have what's left.
I know that I can findthe fire in your eyes.
I'll throw it all away, get away, please.

You take the breath right out of me.
You left a hole where my heart should be.
You got to fight just to make it through,
'cause I will be the death of you.

I'm waiting, I'm hating, realize, start hiding.

You take the breath right out of me.
You left a hole where my heart should be.
You got to fight just to make it through,
'cause I will be the death of you.

If I just lay here

I'm back again... yay... So many months.. too much work.. RSAF Open House.. went nuts. Came back... Now i'm just waiting for ORD.. hahaz.. December 7 here i come...

Finally.....

WHAHAHA.. Finally I have the opportunity to use the computer for a long enuff time. Wireless Rocks. Yay.. will update more soon.. Soo busy now.. working on the invites for RSAF open house.. AH.... I'm so gonna post some writing soon...

Probably in late June early July...

Silence Of A Different Kind

It cannot be said how the heart truly feels
It gets broken again and again
Mending takes too much
Burdened by multiple wounds

Silence once again evades me
And I am on the brink
Weary and unassured
I haven't found a way
Maybe it hasn't come
It won't, Yes it will

I care too much to think about it
I want to cry
But I am at a sudden loss of emotions
Cry cry cry
Too much too late
What's done is done
A tear will still be a tear
No mending will make it perfect again
Ever

Silence and I rejoice
Silence I cannot find
Dark have my dreams been
of a tired and lonely scene

Woah Long Time

Been so long.. Hahaz. so much has happened and everything is crazy.. Youth camp, church camp and lots of other stuff. and we end up here.. I finally got time to update so i'll update smth i wrote last month....

Numb and broken, here I stand alone
Wondering what were the last words I said to you
Hoping, praying that I'll find a way to turn back time
Can I turn back time?


What would I give to behold
The smile, the face of love?
You never left me
The rising sun will always speak your name


Numb and broken, here I stand alone
Wondering what were the last words I said to you


It won't be long, we'll meet again
What would I give to behold
The smile, the face of love?
You never left meThe rising sun will always speak your name
It won't be long, we'll meet again
Your memory is never passing
It won't be long, we'll meet again
My love for you is everlasting

I mourn for those who never knew you

It won't be long, we'll meet again
Your memory is never passing
It won't be long, we'll meet again
My love for you is everlasting


I need you now more than ever...
Not really the best days of my life...

Sometimes I Just Wanna................

Been a couple of days.. hahaz... Totally tiring its been doing very random stuff be it outside or at work... Constantly doing work cant sleep right and my clocks going heywire... Dumb phone cracked and i dont even know why... Talk about a bittersweet day. One moment it was good then i just died when i saw my phone.... Past few days have been good too.. Hahaz.. met up with Lynn after sooo long, totally enjoyed myself. Went to liquid kitchen... Hahaz.. its like the fourth time in a month.. talk about overkill. Haiz.. Feeling tired and slightly frustrated.. Nvm.. Til next time...

140506 0322hrs

The time of facing one's demons is here
I stand facing mine,
I can only face them alone
The choice i have at hand is clear to the mind
The heart cannot and does not want to accept what is fact
Holding onto even a single thread

Believing in one's own mistake is one mistake too far
The mouth cannot express what the heart and mind truly mean
The contradictions are non-apparent to me
But the confusion will ruin even the best of us

So the demon towers over me
Awaiting for the obvious to happen
For the right opportune to fall me
The straight is tough but i will walk

I fear not because i know i can trust
I will make the decision, I will place my faith
But the bankrupt will find the means to love again
Invest his time into something he hopes will be fruitful
Dig deep and search I only find fear and weariness
Something still does not disappear

Silence still evades me

I am thinking of two
Less of one more of you
Carrying a rational open notion
I can't stop thinking of you......

Sometimes Your Brain Just Doesn't Seem to help at all....

Hellooo... Had a fun time last friday... Cooked spagetti for everyone.. Had fun shopping with Esther and Henry had fun talking to everybody and i was labelled a bimbo for exclaiming dat i wanna go shopping out loud... hahaz... Hung out with bryan david and evelyn after dat at siglap... Sat was all blur though... Lol.. ended up eating at marina south... Had soccer on sunday... The longest time since i last played.. Like at least a yr ago.. Whoo... today was a silly yet peaceful work day.... and tml i will be going to see the specialist at TTSH.. slack again.. My leave is approved... GOOD... I cant get this song out of my head... its by Olivia called Make It Mutual

Make It Mutual

A quiet moment by myself on the beach
A sweet feeling that is swirling in me
Its delirious

Now that's a sugar rush
My heart is beating oh so fast
And i hope i dont fall into deep too fast

There's no need to rush
We can take our time
Let it go the natural way
We begin as friends
And who knows what
Where this could be taking me



In this nice cool breeze
Yes i am all at ease
When I gush
And ths sweet feeling comes to me
Can't deny can't lie can't really face the truth
And i wonder if you're feeling the same way too



You know what i would like?
I'd like to get to know you more
Make that mutual
Boy, you know you wanna know me too

This is how you make me feel
When you're here i feel your vibe
And i hope i don't fall into deep too fast

You're not the type
Who'll rush into things
And let it slip away
Yeah, i like your type
Caught up in this ride
Its kinda silly but i'll say

Chorus


Have fun ppl.. i wrote something 2 nights ago.. Putting it up too...

I just bought 2 cds.. And got myself poor... Alas temptation...

Wat a tiring day yesterday... Had to sit out 2 wars in a day... major ones as well, one in the morning and one in the afternoon... Office politics at its ugliest.. Cant stand arguments, they make me feel dizzy... The skys were threatening to kill as well while i was on my way home... Today i finally registered for bike lessons... 1st lesson 26th may... didnt know there were dat many ppl learning bike... Work was weird, so was the day... Went shopping for 2 cds... wanted to buy only Red Hot Chilli Peppers but saw Olivia's aka Li Ting's cd... then bought it without really considering how poor i am... hahahaz... So i guess its time to scrimp and save... Cant wait for friday.. so excited... cell outing hahaz.. never felt like this in awhile...


Out of the ground I rise to grace
Nobody knows it's just a phase
Help me I'm out of breath again
Nobody knows somewhere to make it go away



But when the comforter is come, whom i will send unto you from the Father
even the spirit of truth, which proceedeth from the Father, He shall testify of Me
John 15:26

This day is..... an ordinary day......

Wat a day... I'm at home... hahaz... got a day off... whee... I'm still sick.. Have been sick since labour day... Ack.... Im slowly getting used to being called shalom cell... But i alredi love this cell group.. And I'm looking forward to having more to do with them and know them more... Anywayz... i love today as well... its a perfect ordinary day... 8th may.. has a nice ring to it...


080506

The quest for silence is a contempt to my head
The mind thinks what the heart cannot stop
The mind thinks what the heart cannot want
The heart wants what the mind cannot force
The world of contradictions in one body
Thinking one but saying another
Saying one but thinking of another
The question of forget and regret roll into one
And from that one, many thoughts come upon
me on this night and early morn
A time of great joy and great mourn
080506 2.00 am
Silence evades me
I am thinking of two
You remembered You didnt
Not yet anyway......

My Oh My.......

Hello again.... I just got posted to Personnel Admin section last week... Wow... made new friends and had a bit of fun... Still waiting to start working on Runway cycling... Now im just doing extra stuff like filing and typing random entries of information all day long... going nuts... hahaz....


I'm in love with a girl,
Everybody seems to know.
I'll sing it loud,
Sing it 'cos I'm feeling proud of love.
Oh yeah, this is love.

You take me away to another place,
You show me a way to a higher grace.
You take me away to another place,
I'm seeing it all with a happy face.

She can walk on the waves,
Crashing through my own desire.
Swing and sway,
Dance until my demons fly away.
This is love, this is love.

Take me away....