Work Work....

Its been so so long since i last said something. My birthday has passed.. Im 21 now.. Sch has been interesting weird and busy. Life has suddenly become so busy. Joined Knightsfall jamming our way to an album.. hahaz.. Tired out as it is and waiting for something easier to come by.. Woohoo...

Praise and All Glory Be to God forever and ever Amen!!

Praise God!!! Hahaz... I passed my Traffice Police Test today!! Praise God.. Thank God for He really pulled me through the test. Today onwards Aaron/Noraa Chan is an official biker riding A Bajaj Pulsar.. Woohoo...

I Have Had Enough Of Being Played Out by People...

I have brought you,
that our passions may fuse and merge -
in your mind you've already succumbed to me
dropped all defences completely succumbed to me -
now you are here with me: no second thoughts,
you've decided, decided ...

Past the point of no return -
no backward glances:
the games we've played till now are at an end ...
Past all thought of "if" or "when" -
no use resisting: abandon thought, and let the dream descend ...

What raging fire shall flood the soul?
What rich desire unlocks its door?
What sweet seduction lies before us ...?

Past the point of no return,
the final threshold - what warm, unspoken secrets will we learn?
Beyond the point of no return ...

You have brought me to that moment where words run dry,
to that moment where speech disappears into silence,
silence ...

I have come here, hardly knowing
the reason why ...
In my mind,
I've already imagined our bodies entwining
defenceless and silent - and now I am here with you: no second thoughts,

I've decided, decided ...

Past the point of no return -
no going back now:
our passion-play has now, at last, begun ...
Past all thought of right or wrong -
one final question: how long should we two wait, before we're one ...?

When will the blood begin to race the sleeping bud burst into bloom?
When will the flames, at last, consume us ...?
Past the point of no return the final threshold -
the bridge is crossed, so stand and watch it burn ...
We've passed the point of no return ...

Nearing The Beginning...

Woohoo... Been a very hectic month after CNY.. So busy so many things to do. Yay.. getting my riding license soon. TP coming up as soon as possible.. I have decided to go SIM study Bachelor of Arts Communication. Must admit in being a tad disappointed for not ever going to attend NUS or NTU and experieincing the campus life of Singapore. I must say it sometimes is very hurting when friends start talking about going on to doing stuff in NUS and NTU and sharing mutual experiences. Sad but true. I am never ever going to go in.

Nice Guys Finish Last and Lonely.. So what's New?

Take a photograph,
It'll be the last,
Not a dollar or a crowd could ever keep me here,

I don't have a past
I just have a chance,
Not a family or honest plea remains to say,


Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun.


Is it you I want,
Or just the notion
Of a heart to wrap around so I can find my way around

Safe to say from here,
Your getting closer now,
We are never sad cause we are not allowed to be


Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun.
Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun.


To lie here under you,
Is all that I could ever do,
To lie here under you is all,
To lie here under you is all that i could ever do,
To lie here under you is all,

Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun.
Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun,
All the world is waiting for the sun,
All the world is waiting for the sun.

Sooner Or Later...

Crushes hurt.
They hurt more when you know its not a crush anymore
The thought of spurned love
The thought of loneliness
The idea of never finding anybody else that can make you feel that peculiar joy
The one that lifts your spirits the way nothing else can
Something that time will never repair
A wound never to be closed
Everybody knows how its like
Non as much as the one that is in this plight
In tears run dry
We cannot deny
Sorrow

Help Me

Lord, Help me walk
Another mile, just one more mile;
I'm tired of walkin' all alone.

Lord, Help me smile
Another smile, just one more smile;
You know I just can't make it on my own.

I never thought I needed help before;
I thought that I could get by - by myself.
Now I know I just can't take it any more.
With a humble heart, on bended knee,
I'm beggin' You, please, Help Me.

Come down from Your golden
And throne to me, to lowly me;
I need to feel the touch of Your tender hand.

Remove the chains of darkness
Let me see, Lord let me see;
Just where I fit into your master plan.

I never thought I needed help before;
I thought that I could get by - by myself.
Now I know I just can't take it any more.
With a humble heart, on bended knee,
I'm beggin' You, please, Help Me.

God's Gonna Cut You Down

You can run on for a long time
Run on for a long time
Run on for a long time
Sooner or later God'll cut you down
Sooner or later God'll cut you down

Go tell that long tongue liar
Go and tell that midnight rider
Tell the rambler,
The gambler,
The back biter
Tell 'em that God's gonna cut 'em down
Tell 'em that God's gonna cut 'em down

Well my goodness gracious let me tell you the news
My head's been wet with the midnight dew
I've been down on bended knee talkin' to the man from Galilee
He spoke to me in the voice so sweet
I thought I heard the shuffle of the angel's feet
He called my name and my heart stood still
When he said, "John go do My will!"

Go tell that long tongue liar
Go and tell that midnight rider
Tell the rambler,
The gambler,
The back biter
Tell 'em that God's gonna cut 'em down
Tell 'em that God's gonna cut 'em down

You can run on for a long time
Run on for a long time
Run on for a long time
Sooner or later God'll cut you down
Sooner or later God'll cut you down

Well you may throw your rock and hide your hand
Workin' in the dark against your fellow man
But as sure as God made black and white
What's done in the dark will be brought to the light

You can run on for a long time
Run on for a long time
Run on for a long time
Sooner or later God'll cut you down
Sooner or later God'll cut you down

Go tell that long tongue liar
Go and tell that midnight rider
Tell the rambler,
The gambler,
The back biter
Tell 'em that God's gonna cut you down
Tell 'em that God's gonna cut you down
Tell 'em that God's gonna cut you down

Work Work....

Over the hills and far away
No mind can fathom what i have to say
The realisation that i have a partner
Makes me want to stop and ponder
Quite a handful of new people i know
Wish it would have been easier though
There is really no escape from this
Bashing through with a sweet sweet kiss
Been newly crowned as a saltshaker
Not really something i would have bothered
Wishing you were somehow here again
Never ever would my days be plain
I feel weird and lousy
Bye

Raining Again....

Sleepless Nights Spent Endlessly Thinking And Pondering
Cannont Really be Understood The Reasons Why I Do
But I do
Still Thinking About You, Refusing To Do Anything
I'm Done Doing Something, Nothing Satisfies Me
Beyond The Brink Of Consciousness I Dream
Aware Of The Consequence I Face
I Love You But I Can't Face You and I Cannot Be With You
Unworthy Of The Slightest Hope, Death Is A Quick Remedy
Its Not My Time. Not Til I Find You Again
I Need You. The Warmth The Strength The Heart The Love
Burns.
The Nights I Spend Thinking Of You And What Might Have Been
Such A Painful Memory I Want to Erase
Writing Is A Sin And I Lost My Muse
Cry, I Want To But It Never Came Back To Me
Not Since You Left Me
Forever

Happy New Year

ARH... Happy New Year.
The new year is here... haiz... New year.. yay... Happy New Year All... Please enjoy. Dont do stupid things.. Hahaz...

Dumb people that sabo us all...

Irresponsibility. Something that i hate most. Something that i try my best to improve on for myself because i know it will affect people around. ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hello.. people.. wake up.. There is no point trying to cover your own ass. YOU people are a disappointment. Do not commit to something that u end up not being able to commit to. YOU GIVE PEOPLE ALOT OF PROBLEMS. I cannot stand it when people who are not involved get dragged in to do your work. I cannot stand it when you are told something simple to do and you end up being very very ineffectual by saying 'oh, im so busy with my stuff i cant do this, i cant do that....' blah blah blah. IF YOU CANT DO IT THEN DONT COMMIT TO DOING IT IN THE FIRST PLACE. STUPID or what? No brains? No cow sense. Wake up larhz. Anything else would just be vulgar and an extreme waste of time.

By God, I am a FREE man... Call me MISTER

ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD ORD LOHZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.....

I have finished the 2 years of nonsense that is the army. The 2 years of time wasted seeing hoe the stupid govt plans your life and screws is up and how i screw it back with them... Stupid places filled with stupid people... I AM DONE WITH IT ALL... YAY...

I am free... Call me Mister... HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAZ......

She was beauty personified.

Whilst I see you still do not have the time to update, I shall do the honours for you, especially since today is one of those awesome days to read blogs and blog. Shall tell you more about the blogs I read today next time. Some are incredibly crap-like, some are a little more intellectual, yet still crap-like all the same. Its not difficult to come across blogs with substance these days, but it still is difficult to come across those which are influential for the good of mankind.

I planned to post some random pictures I took with Jackson today, but I decided against it, because your blog looks better without colourful photos which totally make no sense whatever.

Since my girlfriend Charlene will be a working woman for the next couple of weeks, means that shopping dates are delayed/cancelled. Haha. I never really enjoyed shopping. But now that I know exactly what I want, I have the undying need to go shopping. (I have never said that before) Considering my folks haven't been in town for the past few weeks, I have been such a good girl, the only place where my money seems to be going to is food and cab fares. Its a terrible loss, I know. I have plans on going Queensway and getting myself that awesome pair of Puma shoes, of course after visiting the Puma outlet at Heeren (I suppose Heeren's is more up-to-date than the Queensway designs I saw previously). After which, I need to hunt for more clothes to wear in light of the approaching Festive Season. Seeing that I haven't really been shopping for a whole year, I think it is time to get some new clothes. Hais.

Now, wasn't that a disgusting paragraph? But please note whatever I have said is, in fact, true. I dislike people who blog about their shopping sprees or how they need to satisfy their shopaholic tendancies. And that paragraph is merely the tip of the iceburg of shopping rubbish-ity people blog about. Wake up your idea lah people, get a life. Blogging about these things only add on to the heaps of internet garbage already available in such a public domain.

Moving on, I am indeed looking forward to a new school year. Actually, not really. Not that I want to continue slacking at home and having lots of "me-time", also not that I despise the idea of studying, but, I just don't want to be put into that new unfamiliar environment. Don't get me wrong though. I might be an introvert, but I welcome change, and I adapt to change quickly and I like making the best out of it. But that's a totally different issue which I am presently too lazy, or rather, can't be bothered to go into now.

My ears are rejecting certain kinds of music now. And suddenly my entire iTunes playlist doesn't seem to appeal to me. In such circumstances, it's best to just switch it off. *presses the little X button* Much better, silence, is good for your soul. Hais, just realised it's 10.17pm and I missed Ghost Whisperer on Channel 5. Oh well, I can always find something more fulfilling to do.

I suddenly crave for a delicious Subway meal. *pauses to ponder about something else* Right, anyway, I think I'm getting tired of blogging now. I need to do something else before I go mad.

Denise Cheong

Jay Chou, you is rocks.

I figured that it is time to give this blog a little revivement (if there's such a word) and rejuvination (??).

Is it WRONG to miss your ex-husband?
Yes.
Is it wrong that
you're jealous because your husband went on a honeymoon with his evil "wife"?
Yes. Because she IS his wife.
Is it wrong to divorce your
current husband because you want your previous husband back?
Yes.
Is it wrong that your ex-husband has another girlfriend now?
No. Because you dumped him first.
Is it wrong that you're
planning to kill your current husband's "wife"?
Yes.

The truth is revealed! And yet I still don't get it. Aaron, boy you must be looking forward to ORD, which is in like, a few weeks time I suppose? Your vegetable days are merely beginning! O levels ended earlier than I anticipated, and suddenly I've got quite a lot of free time to do useless good-for-nothing things. I suppose that's not good. My parents are away for 2 weeks, and suddenly I have more freedom than ever. Planning to INITIAL D around the carpark with my reckless cousin. And yes, with my dad's car. HAHAHAH. The only problem with that is that we don't know how to reverse park. So we're probably going to park head first. My dad probably won't notice the difference when he comes back, unless he takes a photo and realises that the car moved 2 inches, or rather, is parked the other way around. Aaron, faster stop me.

It is a lovely Monday morning, sunshine after rain, the beginning of a beautiful day. Maybe that's because I'm getting something brand new, black, shiny, sleek and handsome today. :)

That's all for now. Enjoy your last few weeks of working for the SAF and have a God-inspired day ahead!

The one and only,
Denise Cheong.

I LOVE LITERATURE.

IMPACT OF THE HEADMASTER ON KRISHNA.

The headmaster initially strikes Krishna as a mentally unsound and an eccentric man. Upon the first time of meeting the headmaster, Krishna already had an indifferent impression of the Headmaster. This is evident from "He struck me as an extraodrinary man." The headmaster also planted a deep interest and curiosity in Krishna then. Krishna wanted to know more about him, as seen in "I found him more and more fascinating." Krishna desired to draw closer to him, finding him as a very intriguing character. Krishna also believed that he was about to make "a profound contact in life" through the headmaster.

Later in the text, Krishna is exposed to the background and further insights of the headmaster, especially after knowing that the headmaster runs his own school for children, under his "Leave Along System". Krishna then found this system very attractive as it was far different than the British education system that he so strongly detests. This is evident from "This education has reduced us to a nation of morons, strangers to our own culture, camp followers of another culture, feeding on leavings and garbage." In contrast, the Leave Alone System doesn't spoon-feed or discipline the students excessively, very unlike the system in Albert Mission College. This is indeed a refreshing contrast to Krishna's life. Upon seeing the passion the headmaster has for his school, Krishna is drawn towards the school, which emphasizes on the importance of childhood, which is spontaneous and natural, free from rationalism, religion and other systems of thought, which Krishna later realises that that indeed is his real purpose in life. The headmaster believes in working off "the curse of adulthood" and to "speak plainly, without the varnish of the adult world". From examples like these, Krishna finally realises that that is what he has been trying to escape from, the "false education" in his college, and finally leaves the college to be a teacher in the headmaster's school, finally satisfying his "innermost aspirations".

Krishna is also often seen in awe of the headmaster's outlook in life and enthusiasm in teaching the children at his school. The headmaster seems always happy and at peace (something which Krishna has long desired), despite his dysfunctional family, consisting of his unreasonable wife and "wild" children. The headmaster seems to have failed miserably in his role as a father in upbringing his own children, yet he puts his entire life's purpose and his very existance in taking care of the children in his school, which is very ironic in fact. However, the headmaster does not let his family affect him in his aim in educating the children in his school, partly because he thought he knew the exact hour of his death. Other than that, he was a satisfied man, leaving his wife, children and neighbourhood to live at his school, focusing on attaining a genuine lifestyle, his commitment to living the truth of what he truely believes in. This is evident in "I strictly want to live according to my own plan of living and not subordinate it for anybody's sake." Krishna later on adopts this idea of a more genuine lifestyle and resigns from his job at the college.

Krishna would never have decided to resign from his job if it weren't for the headmaster. At one point, he thought of giving up, when he said "One works for money.. said I in my sober cynicism." However, seeing the headmaster being so headstrong in his life, Krishna decides to discard the importance of money, to let go of his child Leela in seeing that "She must have her own life" and seeks "an inner peace" and a more harmonious existance in working at the headmaster's school. Krishna also finds much "delight and enlightenment" in teaching the children. From this I can see that through very subtle encounters with the headmaster, the headmaster indeed helped Krishna rediscover life's purpose.

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WHA. I CAN'T EVEN REACH 5 PARAGRAPHS. CAN FILL TWO SIDES OF FOOLSCAP PAPER OR NOT!? This essay needs to be improved within 24 hours.

I hope the headmaster is tested. :)

Yours sincerely,
Denise CHEONG

the Cheong-san one-man regime is finally here.

The NK Story

"Flee Aaron, FLEE! WMD is commiinng..!"

*KABOOM*

ALARM signal is being played island-wide. You duck under the table for cover. "WHAT TO DO? WHAT TO DO?!" You wait anxiously, chewing your fingernails off. You start freaking out and burst into profuse sweating.

*KABOOM*

You scream.

You are squatting, under your table made of sheer cheap wood, in your brand new shabby apartment you just rented along macpherson road, shivering in fear of the square-jawed North Koreans. You have no radio, "I should have listened to the SCDF when they told me to buy one." You curse upon your apparent unreadiness. You wait, and wait, in painful anticipation of the ALL CLEAR SIGNAL.

Then, in the dead, still silence you reside in, you hear footsteps..

-TO BE CONTINUED-

NAOMI VICE (sneak preview)

14 october - tragedy. she stole my true love away. why naomi, why.
miyagi is mine. but because he is yours first, that's why he must celebrate birthday for you. but be wary my dear naomi, for i will come looking for you, in your darkest memory. because you know, and i know, that he's not the one for you. miyagi is mine.
so naomi, don't fear the nights and the bitter cold, because both you and i know why i'm there. self-deception is easy. but you can't fool me, naomi. not now, not ever. so give back what doesn't belong to you.

stealing is a sin, didn't you hear?

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managed to dig out these stories and editted them a bit. well, look forward to more stories coming your way! for now, take care and huan ying, enjoy. =\ (whatever that means.)

signing out,
Cheong-san.

2 more months to ORD!!!!!!!

Some people live their dreams
Some people close their eyes
Some people´s destiny
Passes by

There are no guarantees
There are no alibis
That´s how our love must be
Don´t ask why

It take´s some time
God knows how long
I know that I can forget you

As soon as my heart stops breakin´
Anticipating
As soon as forever is through
I´ll be over you

Remembering times gone by
Promises we once made
What are the reasons why
Nothing stays the same

There were the nights
Holding you close
Someday I´ll forget them

As soon as my heart stops breakin´
Anticipating
As soon as forever is through
I´ll be over you

As soon as my heart stops breakin´
Anticipating
Someday I´ll be over you

As soon as my heart stops breakin´
Anticipating
Someday I´ll be over you

As soon as my heaaah...
(As soon as my heart stops breakin´ Anticipating)
I'll be over You

Maybe......... Maybe Not......

I Look At You You Look At Me (You Can't Help It You're Feeling Butterflies)
Its obvious, We have Chemistry (I think I know it cuz it feels so right)
Girl I wanted so long to know
Now Your telling me you gotta let it go (Dont Tell Me I have to start all over again)
I Never thought that this day would come (This is somthing that i've wanted in my life)
I realize that you're the one (and you're telling me its time to say goodbye)
To Put this out of my heart It ain't gonna change
So it shouldn't be so easy to walk away (You feel it I feel it lets not be tense)


Baby, I Don't Know What Love Is Maybe I'm A Fool
I Just Know What I'm Feeling And It's All Because Of You
Don't Tell Me I Don't Know I Want The Truth
Cuz They Call It We Call It You Call It I Call It Love

It's so clear for you to see (dont let anybody tell you what to do)
Why they can't they just let us be happy (i dont want to find somebody new)
If you know what's real in your heart
Then dont let them tear us apart (Cuz you feel it I feel it Lets think this through)

Baby, I Don't Know What Love Is Maybe I'm A Fool
I Just Know What I'm Feeling And It's All Because Of You
Don't Tell Me I Don't Know I Want The Truth
Cuz They Call It We Call It You Call It I Call It Love

We Have a bond thats unbreakable And its not time to let it go
And now that we know its real
We are going to let it show To the whole world
That I'm yours forever and you're my girl

Baby, I Don't Know What Love Is Maybe I'm A Fool
I Just Know What I'm Feeling And It's All Because Of You
Don't Tell Me I Don't Know I Want The Truth
Cuz They Call It We Call It You Call It I Call It Love

You take the breath right out of me. You left a hole where my heart should be

Breath

I see nothing in your eyes, and the more I see the less I like.
Is it over yet, in my head?

I know nothing of your kind, and I won't reveal your evil mind.
Is it over yet? I can't win.

So sacrifice yourself, and let me have what's left.
I know that I can find the fire in your eyes.
I'll throw it all away, get away, please.

You take the breath right out of me.
You left a hole where my heart should be.
You got to fight just to make it through,
'cause I will be the death of you.

This will be all over soon. Pour salt into the open wound.
Is it over yet? Let me in.

So sacrifice yourself, and let me have what's left.
I know that I can findthe fire in your eyes.
I'll throw it all away, get away, please.

You take the breath right out of me.
You left a hole where my heart should be.
You got to fight just to make it through,
'cause I will be the death of you.

I'm waiting, I'm hating, realize, start hiding.

You take the breath right out of me.
You left a hole where my heart should be.
You got to fight just to make it through,
'cause I will be the death of you.

If I just lay here

I'm back again... yay... So many months.. too much work.. RSAF Open House.. went nuts. Came back... Now i'm just waiting for ORD.. hahaz.. December 7 here i come...

Finally.....

WHAHAHA.. Finally I have the opportunity to use the computer for a long enuff time. Wireless Rocks. Yay.. will update more soon.. Soo busy now.. working on the invites for RSAF open house.. AH.... I'm so gonna post some writing soon...

Probably in late June early July...

Silence Of A Different Kind

It cannot be said how the heart truly feels
It gets broken again and again
Mending takes too much
Burdened by multiple wounds

Silence once again evades me
And I am on the brink
Weary and unassured
I haven't found a way
Maybe it hasn't come
It won't, Yes it will

I care too much to think about it
I want to cry
But I am at a sudden loss of emotions
Cry cry cry
Too much too late
What's done is done
A tear will still be a tear
No mending will make it perfect again
Ever

Silence and I rejoice
Silence I cannot find
Dark have my dreams been
of a tired and lonely scene

Woah Long Time

Been so long.. Hahaz. so much has happened and everything is crazy.. Youth camp, church camp and lots of other stuff. and we end up here.. I finally got time to update so i'll update smth i wrote last month....

Numb and broken, here I stand alone
Wondering what were the last words I said to you
Hoping, praying that I'll find a way to turn back time
Can I turn back time?


What would I give to behold
The smile, the face of love?
You never left me
The rising sun will always speak your name


Numb and broken, here I stand alone
Wondering what were the last words I said to you


It won't be long, we'll meet again
What would I give to behold
The smile, the face of love?
You never left meThe rising sun will always speak your name
It won't be long, we'll meet again
Your memory is never passing
It won't be long, we'll meet again
My love for you is everlasting

I mourn for those who never knew you

It won't be long, we'll meet again
Your memory is never passing
It won't be long, we'll meet again
My love for you is everlasting


I need you now more than ever...
Not really the best days of my life...

Sometimes I Just Wanna................

Been a couple of days.. hahaz... Totally tiring its been doing very random stuff be it outside or at work... Constantly doing work cant sleep right and my clocks going heywire... Dumb phone cracked and i dont even know why... Talk about a bittersweet day. One moment it was good then i just died when i saw my phone.... Past few days have been good too.. Hahaz.. met up with Lynn after sooo long, totally enjoyed myself. Went to liquid kitchen... Hahaz.. its like the fourth time in a month.. talk about overkill. Haiz.. Feeling tired and slightly frustrated.. Nvm.. Til next time...

140506 0322hrs

The time of facing one's demons is here
I stand facing mine,
I can only face them alone
The choice i have at hand is clear to the mind
The heart cannot and does not want to accept what is fact
Holding onto even a single thread

Believing in one's own mistake is one mistake too far
The mouth cannot express what the heart and mind truly mean
The contradictions are non-apparent to me
But the confusion will ruin even the best of us

So the demon towers over me
Awaiting for the obvious to happen
For the right opportune to fall me
The straight is tough but i will walk

I fear not because i know i can trust
I will make the decision, I will place my faith
But the bankrupt will find the means to love again
Invest his time into something he hopes will be fruitful
Dig deep and search I only find fear and weariness
Something still does not disappear

Silence still evades me

I am thinking of two
Less of one more of you
Carrying a rational open notion
I can't stop thinking of you......

Sometimes Your Brain Just Doesn't Seem to help at all....

Hellooo... Had a fun time last friday... Cooked spagetti for everyone.. Had fun shopping with Esther and Henry had fun talking to everybody and i was labelled a bimbo for exclaiming dat i wanna go shopping out loud... hahaz... Hung out with bryan david and evelyn after dat at siglap... Sat was all blur though... Lol.. ended up eating at marina south... Had soccer on sunday... The longest time since i last played.. Like at least a yr ago.. Whoo... today was a silly yet peaceful work day.... and tml i will be going to see the specialist at TTSH.. slack again.. My leave is approved... GOOD... I cant get this song out of my head... its by Olivia called Make It Mutual

Make It Mutual

A quiet moment by myself on the beach
A sweet feeling that is swirling in me
Its delirious

Now that's a sugar rush
My heart is beating oh so fast
And i hope i dont fall into deep too fast

There's no need to rush
We can take our time
Let it go the natural way
We begin as friends
And who knows what
Where this could be taking me



In this nice cool breeze
Yes i am all at ease
When I gush
And ths sweet feeling comes to me
Can't deny can't lie can't really face the truth
And i wonder if you're feeling the same way too



You know what i would like?
I'd like to get to know you more
Make that mutual
Boy, you know you wanna know me too

This is how you make me feel
When you're here i feel your vibe
And i hope i don't fall into deep too fast

You're not the type
Who'll rush into things
And let it slip away
Yeah, i like your type
Caught up in this ride
Its kinda silly but i'll say

Chorus


Have fun ppl.. i wrote something 2 nights ago.. Putting it up too...

I just bought 2 cds.. And got myself poor... Alas temptation...

Wat a tiring day yesterday... Had to sit out 2 wars in a day... major ones as well, one in the morning and one in the afternoon... Office politics at its ugliest.. Cant stand arguments, they make me feel dizzy... The skys were threatening to kill as well while i was on my way home... Today i finally registered for bike lessons... 1st lesson 26th may... didnt know there were dat many ppl learning bike... Work was weird, so was the day... Went shopping for 2 cds... wanted to buy only Red Hot Chilli Peppers but saw Olivia's aka Li Ting's cd... then bought it without really considering how poor i am... hahahaz... So i guess its time to scrimp and save... Cant wait for friday.. so excited... cell outing hahaz.. never felt like this in awhile...


Out of the ground I rise to grace
Nobody knows it's just a phase
Help me I'm out of breath again
Nobody knows somewhere to make it go away



But when the comforter is come, whom i will send unto you from the Father
even the spirit of truth, which proceedeth from the Father, He shall testify of Me
John 15:26

This day is..... an ordinary day......

Wat a day... I'm at home... hahaz... got a day off... whee... I'm still sick.. Have been sick since labour day... Ack.... Im slowly getting used to being called shalom cell... But i alredi love this cell group.. And I'm looking forward to having more to do with them and know them more... Anywayz... i love today as well... its a perfect ordinary day... 8th may.. has a nice ring to it...


080506

The quest for silence is a contempt to my head
The mind thinks what the heart cannot stop
The mind thinks what the heart cannot want
The heart wants what the mind cannot force
The world of contradictions in one body
Thinking one but saying another
Saying one but thinking of another
The question of forget and regret roll into one
And from that one, many thoughts come upon
me on this night and early morn
A time of great joy and great mourn
080506 2.00 am
Silence evades me
I am thinking of two
You remembered You didnt
Not yet anyway......

My Oh My.......

Hello again.... I just got posted to Personnel Admin section last week... Wow... made new friends and had a bit of fun... Still waiting to start working on Runway cycling... Now im just doing extra stuff like filing and typing random entries of information all day long... going nuts... hahaz....


I'm in love with a girl,
Everybody seems to know.
I'll sing it loud,
Sing it 'cos I'm feeling proud of love.
Oh yeah, this is love.

You take me away to another place,
You show me a way to a higher grace.
You take me away to another place,
I'm seeing it all with a happy face.

She can walk on the waves,
Crashing through my own desire.
Swing and sway,
Dance until my demons fly away.
This is love, this is love.

Take me away....

Cure My Tragedy

Halox... Haha... i had smth to put up here but I'm not sure if i want to... Weird... Nvm... I'm still waiting to see if I can push for my 8 to 5 faster... soon...
Im into old sch disco and mat rock songs this few days... hahaz....

Ask, and it shall be given you;
Seek, and ye shall find;
Knock, and it shall be opened unto you.

Matthew 7 : 7

Runaway Train

Helloo.... Long while... Hahaz... I thank God for helping me to speed up my downgrade process and also keep me at my original workplace.. Thank God... Now i can work 8 - 5 and serve God more... Whoopie hahaz.... Also sent in my Uni application again.. Had better work this time God willing...

We're Still Fighting It...

Back from work yesterday... Was kinda moody yesterday probably tired too... It comes together... Took a can of tiger classic and got slping at arnd 2 am... Wanted to ask Jeff out for supper but gave up cuz he had smth else after W nI... Had so much wanted to take a walk alone to seletar reservoir... That would really have been mad... Anyayz got up at 945 today... Never so early in awhile... Church today, time to go and see my boys and start preparing stuff for cell... Work tml, sigh....


Silence in a maddening crowd
Solitude in the face of a distant memory

Show Me The Meaning Of Being Happy...

Its been awhile... Very busy with lotsa stuff...mom is in australia right now and gonna be back on thursday... Valentines day was interesting, got invited to a picnic with Chui Li Evelyn and Joy along with Jeff and Chin at botanical gardens. Was fun but i was still kinda moody that day.. I think im gonna start hating this day where i see loving couples everywhere... Hahaz... While waiting for the girls i wrote a couple of stuff... I now have no idea if writing stuff makes me feel better or more depressed... I seriously reckon i'll go mad... Oh, Jeff got his driving license.. nice...

Sometimes BSB have the nicest most meaningful of songs....

Happy Lunar New Year......

Past weeks been a chore... Totally tired out by work and everything outside it... Having a headache as to what i'm gonna do with certain issues im facing right now... God grant me wisdom.. Grant Ian the brains to know wat it is he has to do. Let him see where the hell he is going if he continues like this. 4 years and not a single thing has changed. An investment gone wrong. Im kinda losing money on this.. The speculator would sell but im not a stock guy so i cant. Not so worried about the rest as i am about Ian.. bet he doesnt know. Thinks we are victimising him so be it. We'll see wat happens then....

Haiz.. Tired... very.. cant type straight... bye....

When a person turns to wrong, is it a want to be, belong?
Part of things at any cost, at what price a life is lost

At what point do we begin, fighter spirit a will to win
But what makes a man decide, take the wrong or righteous road

There's a thin line between love and hate
Wider divide that you can see between good and bad
There's a grey place between black and white
But everyone does have the right to choose the path that he takes

We all like to put the blame on society these days
But what kind of good or bad a new generation brings

Sometimes take just more than that to survive be good at heart
There is evil in some of us no matter what will never change

I will hope, my soul will fly, so i will live forever
Heart will die, my soul will fly, and i will live forever

Maybe Someday You Will Say Those Words To Me...

Today is my off day... Its gonna be a day of rest. Work's already a killer cant wait to be in sch again (if i ever get in). Never in my life am i gonna work shift work ever. My body is taking a lot of punishment and im just dead tired.. God lead me on to greater things. In You i will trust and i pray for strength to take cell and lead Your sheep. I just had a revelation after having a long talk with Jeff and Chin on saturday. Hahaz.. lets see wat happens in the next 2 years.. Anywayz im at home now and im gonna rest.


The following song is for Denise (that is if she still reads my blog) hahaz... I think u understand the song...

"Home"

I've got a little red bow
And I bought it for you'
Cause I know you're not fair
I don't get it, oh well

And you color my skin
And the colors don't blend'
Cause I'm gonna get you
And your little dog too

There's a yellow brick road
That we follow back home'
Cause I know you can't wait
Your belligerent hate

There's no place like home
There's no place like home
Like home

I've, got a southern belle too
And ruby red shoes
With a body of straw
Are you sick of it all?

There's a man made of tin
With an oil can grin
And I'm gonna get you
And your little dog too

There's a yellow brick road
That we follow back home
And I know you can't wait
Your belligerent hate

There's no place like home
There's no place like home
There's a little white porch
And you wanted it so
Can you let me go down
To the end of the road
In the black and the white
A technicolorful life
Can I stand by your side?
We can make it alright

Like home'

Cause I'm home
There's a little white porch
And you wanted it so
Can you let me go down
To the end of the road
In the black and the white
A technicolorful life
Then another arrived
It's a cowardly lion

What I want from this world
What I wanna resolve
When I want you to stay
So I wash you away
I don't wanna be bold
I don't wanna be cold
I don't wanna grow old
I don't wanna go home

Sucker For The Moment

I'm a sucker for the moment
When things start to fall in place
Everybody keeps in shape and face
Anticipating a never come
Wondering why it will never come

So won't you tell all your friends
I'll put a gun to your head not mine
Stabyou inside til the outside
Push you down across the floor
draging your guts as they dry

No, all this ain't wishing thinking
We'll never know til we try
The moment comes and i'm suckered
Fell for it hook line and sinker

Sucker for the moment

Next To Nothing

Beneath this wave
I just can't take your breath away
You cut me down
You know I'll always be around
So now I wait
I know you'll live another day
Come and take my breath away
Look me straight in the face

Cause you know it's over
Growin' colder
I need something
Leave me next to nothing
All we ever wanted
I need something
Leave me next to nothing
Next to nothing

I cut you down
I know you'll always be around
So now you'll wait
I know you'll live another day
Come and take my breath away
Look me straight in the face

Suckers For The Moment

Pitfalls against the Son of Man
Never did He once falter
Shouldn't we then as children of God
Follow in His footsteps and bear

We are the age of the fearless
Strong and bold, foolish as can be
We are His images
But we fal unlike Him

We are suckers for the moment
Selfish as can be
We forget that Jesus died for me
Not I, Myself, only me

Suckered at the hands of the tempter
Believing in everything for ourselves
We need nobody but ourselves now
Not even God

The sky cries more than i do these days....

Today's my off day. Was supposed to get my guitar but no.... i knew something would be up... Woke up saw the rain and knew that today i would not be collecting my guitar and true enough when i called Lily told me that she forgot to place the order for me... WOW... hahaz... spent the day at home and trying to get Jeff and Sam out for a little chat tonite... hahaz... i doubt that will happen too... I'm gonna continue my Fifa 06...

I turn my hopes up to the sky
I'd like to know before i die
Memories will slowly fade
I lift my eyes and say
Come on, take me away
Come on, take me away

Happie Birthday Phildia!!!!!

Im back again... Feeling kinda melancholic as usual... went with my brother to kinokuniya to get his Lit book. Keeps doing the weirdest of things with the book. I got a book that i wanted. Screwtape letters. Wanna start my brain again after it being dead for so long and see if it will help me get out of this creative rut. ok... gonna let my brother sleep in peace now...

If I could find you now things would get better,
We could leave this town and run forever,
I know somewhere somehow we'll be together,
Let your waves crash down and take me away........
Take me away,
I want you to.......

Wow... Its Been That Long....

And finally i have decided to come back and start blogging again. 2005 has finally passed. Many things have happened and i thank God i havent died yet. I'm still in the midst of reconstruction. my shell is not back up and running yet and therefore still susceptible to a breakdown every once in a while. I'm gonna try to see if i can create something from the cell and make it into something i can use to bond people closer together. I'm gonna see if the boys want it or not.

Im gonna try as much as possible to write and update this thing i have.. Hahaz...


Take me away, I've got nothing left to say
Just take me away, Maybe its much better with You
It is isnt it?
...................................

Written On 12th September I think....

How Many Roads Must A Man Walk Down?
To Find The Love and Know If Shes The One
My Head Is Filled With Questions
And No Answer To Anyone Of Them
Has Ever Brought Me A Single Iota Of Happiness
Except For One
The Answer Isnt Any Stupid Number
It Is Yes She Is The One
Undoubtedly, Unequivocally and Unabashedly Yes...
For One Second In My Whole Sad Little Blip Of Existence
I Felt Happy Because Of Her Existence
She Means The Whole World To Me
And I'm Not Willing To Let Her Go So Easily
And I Think I Might Have Blown It
With The One Person Who Really Gets To Me

For You? I think so....

This is what i gotta say not sure why
But i'm gonna say it anyway
What you feel is what you are
And what you are is beautiful
So take this time to sit back
Admire yourself for who you are
And remember that someone thinks
You are the most beautiful person he has ever met....
Take my breath away....

How Many Roads Must a Man Walk Down?

Long time no blog... Lol... busy and lazy and wanting to use e com at the wrong time ie: when little brother is using to talk to his legions of female friends.... Serious...

I have been thinking alot and mostly come up with nothing but illusions and nonsense in my head... If i have anything i will post it up... I have one now anywayz...

Ciaoz....

Conflicted

I'm not sure wat to write or say cuz i am out of stuff to... At least i'm out of stuf that i can put here... Others i'm not really sure i want to put here though i really want to... I'm weird its alright...

currently listenly to doom metal and liking wat im listening... slow and heavy... Oh yeah...


Someone swears his true love until the end of time, but love runs away....

Monotony is settling in...

I'm feeling quite sian.. I'm feeling out of sorts lately too... looks like my groove just might be coming back... rite........


Anybody wants to go to the Festival Of Praise with me? I dont think i got anyone to go with... sad...

Its For The Best

It takes more time than I've ever had,
Drains the life from me,
Makes me want to forget,
As young as I was,
I felt older back then,
More disciplined,
Stronger and certain,
But I was scared to death of eternity,
I was saved by grace,
But destroyed by naivety,
And I lied to myself,
And said it was for the best,

And now faith is replaced with a logic so cold
I've disregarded what I was,
Now that I'm older,
And I know much more than I did back then,
But the more I learn,
The more I can't understand,
And I've become content with this life that I lead,
Where I drink to much and don't believe in much of anything,
And I lie to myself,
And say it's for the best,

I'm moving forward,
But holding myself back,
And I'm waiting on something that will never come.

I'm moving forward,
But holding myself back,
And I'm waiting on something that will never come.

Happie Birthday Caron!!!!!

Today is a very special day, its my God-daughter's birthday and guess wat? I didnt know... I feel so so bad.. I'm so sorry Caron... I will make it up to u... Promise.. I jus got the note that u wrote me 2 weeks ago after the phone went dead.. I really hafta thank you so much for the prayers and encouragement you have given me for the past few months... I havent been the best of people lately but your encouragement was significant to me... I thank you from the bottom of my heart... Just call me whenever you have anything and i will try my best to be there.. No... i will be there for you...

I have found the peace

Been long time since i last wrote in...

God has given me peace to search for a purpose in Him... At least im not so sad anymore...

Rock Bottom and Still Digging

"Am I Wrong"

Well I talk Too much To myself
And I turn my back on my faith
It's like glass
When we Break
I wish no one in my place
And I've seen You don't need their seeds
When the cut goes in deep
And I'm lost in sleep
I can't stay In this place
I can't stand
When the room turns round
On my fate
You give no guarantees
There's no promise I can keep
I can't stand
I can't see my way I feel blind
On my feet I can't stay too long
Am I wrong?

Goodbye, lay the blame on luck
Goodbye, lay the blame on luck
Goodbye, lay the blame on luck
Goodbye, lay the blame on luck
Goodbye, lay the blame on luck
Goodbye, lay the blame on luck

I'm so tired Of my mood
And sleep comes With a knife, fork and a spoon
You're so pale In your face
You let life Get in your way
And I've seen You don't need their seeds
When the cut goes in deep
And I'm lost in sleep
Am I wrong?

Goodbye, lay the blame on luck
Goodbye, lay the blame on luck
Goodbye, lay the blame on luck
Goodbye, lay the blame on luck


Sadly... maybe i'm hanging unto nothing and i may just hafta say goodbye....
I'll still keep you in my heart forever.....

Broken

Do you care if i don't know what to say
will you sleep tonight or will you think of me
will i shake this off pretend its all okay
that there someone out there who feels just like me
there is

Those notes you wrote me
i've kept them all
I've given a lot of thought of how to write you back this fall
With every single letter in every single word
there will be a hidden message about a boy that loves a girl

Do you care if i don't know what to say
will you sleep tonight or will you think of me
will i shake this off
pretend its all okay that there's someone out there who feels just like me
there is

The Skies Will Cry The Blackest Tears Tonite

Hmmx... Im booking in tml... had a medical checkup at Aeromedical Centre... My heart is fine apparently... HAHAHAHA... Joke of the day.... Anywayz... Jocelyn, if you are reading this... HAPPIE BIRTHDAY!!!! Your are officially 19 this year... Enjoy it while it lasts... Comes only once in a lifetime... Gonna go pack my stuff now...


Get ready for the brimstone.....

Noraa....

Wanting More than I am showing

And so it is
Just like you said it would be
Life goes easy on me
Most of the time
And so it is
The shorter story
No love, no glory
No hero in her sky

I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...

And so it is
Just like you said it should be
We'll both forget the breeze
Most of the time
And so it is
The colder water
The blower's daughter
The pupil in denial

I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...

Did I say that I loathe you?
Did I say that I want to
Leave it all behind?
I can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind...My mind...my mind...
'Til I find somebody new

I dont think i ever will........

Save Me

Had a bad day, don't talk to me,
gonna ride this out,
My little black heart, breaks apart,
with your big mouth.

And I'm sick of my sickness
Dont touch me, you'll get this.
I'm useless, lazy, perverted,
and you hate me.

You can't save me,
You can't change me,
Well I'm waiting for my wake up call,
And everything, everything's my fault.

Went to the doctor, and I asked her,
to make this stop. (whoa)
Got medication, a new addiction,
Fucken thanks a lot.

Had to relapse, I'm outta rehab,
It ruined everything. (whoa)
So point your finger, at the singer,
He's in the pharmacy.

You can't save me,
You can't change me,
Well I'm waiting for my wake up call ,
and everything's my fault.

You can't save me,You can't blame me,
Well I'm waiting here to take a fall,
and everything, and everything's my fault.

And I'm a death threat haven't slept yet,
Baby wide awake at dawn.
Helmet bad boy, tell the tabloids,
everything's my fault.

Whoa whoa yeah, write it write it,
Whoa whoa yeah, write it write it,
Whoa Whoa everthing's my fault
,everthing's my fault.

I went to heaven, couldn't get it,
For what I had done.
I said forsake me, you said you're crazy
you were too much fun.

You can't save me,
You can't change me,
Well I'm waiting for my wake up call ,
and everything's my fault.

You can't save me,
You can't blame me,
Well I'm waiting here to take a fall,
and everything,everthing's my fault.

You can't save me,You can't change me,
You can't save me,You can't change me,
You can't save me,You can't change me,(everthing's my fault)
You can't save me,You can't change me,Everything's my fault.

I'm Your Stranger... Jump!

Im collecting my A level results today... Quite nervous now... leaving in 1/2 hrs time...

Been a long while since i blogged and too many things have happened in this period of absence and i dnu wanna talkl about it... Not now...

Only thing i can say is im busy in bunk writing 13 songs for myself... done with 5 alredi but still a long way to go.....


Goodbye.....

5/01/05 10.32 pm

It is night and i am alone
In the midst of the crowded bunk
Lights out has been called and its time to sleep
But i am here restless and awake
I tried to call but to no avail
Number busy was all I could see

Lying down on my bed with my phone beside me
I stay awake with the fragile hope that you might call me
Tell me how your day was, I want to know
Tell me all your troubles and your feelings, I want to know

It has already been 2 days since i heard the sweet sound that is your voice
I am starting to ponder if you are alright
I am getting worried that something might be wrong
Its been 45 minutes since i sent you a message
And this might just become another sleepless night

...

If only i could here your voice right now
Oh how it would just ease my troubled mind
Wish I could hold you just one time
If only I could see you right now
Just to thrill this little heart of mine
Wish I could read you just one time

So here's a rhyme for the lonely one
Maybe he will feel better inside
No one knows how pathetic he feels
To be so alone, sad and alone
Thinking about the days gone by
And his heart is too broken to cry

The day will come when everything's alright
We will run away and never say goodbye
We will share the joy falling in love can bring
And no one can tell us we are to young to know
Oh how much I love you so...

Anything

I will be there Always waiting
Waiting for you
To let me inside
Where your fire burns
In a city of angels
Just like a river rushing straight into the sea
I'm the one thing meant for you and you for me

Whatever you want
Whatever you need
Whatever it takes, I'll do anything

And as you sleep
Eyes to the window
I'm watching you dream
Well are you dreaming of me?
So why can't you see
You're all that matters
You know if this earth should crack
I'll be your solid ground
I will be there to catch you when you fall down

If I have to crawl
Get down on my knees
Whatever it takes,
I'll do anything

I'd take the stars right out of the sky for you
I'd end the world give you the sun, the moon
For all of time, forever loving you

Whatever you need
Whatever it takes,
I'll do anything
If I have to crawl
Get down on my knees
Whatever it takes,
I'll do anything

Back to Tekong...

spent time writeing stuff but i dun have time to put it down here right now so im just gonna put one only....



Outspoken is the mind that brings out thoughts
Trapped underneath the mass that is nothing
Knowing of the fullness of His Grace
It is never enough for his race
Proper conduct expected from him
Just deserts is deserved of him
Unchained thoughts of the one that breaks him
Provoking the negativities bursting through the seams
Knowing full well of His and his intentions
So similar yet so distant and inconsistant
Doubting his ability to Love like Him
Just wanting to be able to love
Yet he tries and hopes and prays to Him
Hoping He will one day grant His Grace to the one undeserving him
Yearning to see how the story goes

New Year has come and gone.....

Its been a year gone... Didnt really affect me at all... Cant seem to sense wateva everyone else is sensing... Im feeling very unbalanced now... Haha... army is boring and tough on the mind for me... Its ok i still love my country... Im feeling moodless... dun see the need to be happy...


The un-named feeling, takes me away

Take me away....

Im crazy.... For you.....

No more talk of darkness
Forget these wide-eyed fears
I’m here, nothing can harm you
My words will warm you and calm you
Let me be your freedom
Let daylight dry your tears
I’m here, with you and beside you
To guard you and to guide you

Let me be your shelter
Let me be your light
You’re safe, no one will find you
Your fears are far behind you

Say you’ll share with me one love, one lifetime
Let me lead you from your solitude
Say you need me with you here, beside you
Anywhere you go, let me go too
Love me, that's all I ask of you

I am one sick person

My love for you is never-ending
Its what keeps me going on
Hoping one day you will be mine
To love and treasure and share my mind
I could say lots of things
But to lie here under you is the only thing i want to do right now
To lie here under you, in your arms
and yours in mine as we watch ourselves grow old
Share the scars of our hidden past
Lock them up and throw them away
I dont care what they are,
I just want you
I hope you will love me the same way i feel for you now
I dont care for the others that are after you too
because i dont believe that anybody feels the way i do about you now...
Lots of things i want to say to you but i really dont know how.....


By Aaron

Come as you are

Come as you are
Come as you were
Come as what you will be
I dont really care

You were the one
You are the one
And you will still be the one
If you dont get what i mean....


By Aaron

Tekong

This might not be the best but hmmx... I dunno..... haiz.........


And so i left for greener pastures
Just an island away from you
I had to endure the toughest hours
All the while i was thinking of you
The nights i spend are lonely
And all i have is a picture of you
How i wish you were right here with me
But then again, never would i want you to suffer with me too
So until you decide to accept me
I will not stop thinking about you
And so this i pledge to you
My love for you is true


By Aaron

First Book Out was nice

I had time in Tekong to write stuff... hahaz... anywayz... its great to touch the com after being in the army... gonna touch it more soon i hope... Just came back from watching The Phantom Of The Opera and it is a very good show... I feel for the phantom... i understand how he feels.... I also agree with Kurt who also happens to be my section and bunkmate in army after 2 yrs as friends in MJC.... Women often think what they have now is 2nd best and they can do much better... Given a choice it is seen that Christine in the movie and story chose the handsome Raoul instead of the poor phantom because it has always been about looks havent it? hahaz... im gonna post more stuf in a few minutes... bye....


By Aaron

Given To The Army.....

In just about 8 hrs time i will be on Tekong and embarking upon the new phase of my life... The Army... I sure hope this will give me an opportunity to sort things out... Pen down some things if possible... I wont be blogging until Christmas i guess... I'm leaving with mixed feelings...


Bus stop...

You know i told you i had things i wanted to do but didnt... I wanted to just grab you and hold you close to me, hug you never let go and whisper in your ear " I Love You "
I am a gutless coward, all i did was stand there like a fool and mutter the 3 words that i had wanted to tell you every chance i got...
I am gonna miss you so so much... I appreciate the letter and im gonna bring it into Tekong with me and look at the pictures of you whenever the going gets tough and i will miss you all over again... Im sick... then again... I'm in love with You....


This is Aaron/Noraa signing off and not returning until further notice....
Goodbye

By Aaron/ Noraa

I have no idea why im still up at 4.58 am....

Looking back to when we first met
I still don't understand what had came over me
I knew it had to be you
Beyond my wildest dreams and parental objections
I still tried my best to get to know you
I enjoyed the moments and could not forget it was you

Pals thought i was nuts and desperate
No, I saw you for the things that they could not
Slowly i waited and dreamt of a beautiful world only of us
Sure it would happen in the near future
How foolish i was then not to realise the err in my judgement
I stopped talking but my heart didnt stop loving;
my mind did not stop thinking of you

Moving on seemed like an illusion i was trying to pursue
But like a bird in the cage, i was trapped in
After the re-ignition of fire when i met you once again
The realisation of what i had been looking for
It was most definitely you

I was for the first time feeling upbeat about my life
I was so thankful and happy that nothing could bring me down
I often looked at you in amazement and admiration
Dreaming of you in my arms were a mainstead
Never needed to fight for a space in the head
This dream might never come true
For a dream is only but a fleeting moment of feelings in this dumb little head

Nothing can compare to what you mean to me
Nothing in this world is worth the trouble, the wait and the risk
I was willing to give you all and still am
For what lifts me up are not the angels in the sky
Nor the beauty of the natural world
But the thought of you in all the little precious moments we had together


This is for you little frog...




By Aaron

Only You.....

Longer than there've been fishes in the ocean
Higher than any bird ever flew
Longer than there've been starsup in the heavens
I've been in love with you
I am in love with you.......


All I needed was the love you gave
All I needed for another day
All I ever knew
Only you....


If only you knew....



No, a lifetime is not too long to live as FRIENDS



By Aaron

Un-named and un-branded

The Un-named feeling takes me away
Away from all this little thoughts and dreams
Despair from the loss of a battle
Cannot describe the emotions running
Many things his has fought against
Never has he met one such as this
Undefeated he was until now
Half of a broken man even he cannot
Be compared to; Death he wishes upon himself
Wishes for a deus ex machina upon the situation
FAT HOPE FAT CHANCE AND FAT IS HIMSELF
He cannot let himself unwind
Barbaric were his old ways so blessed and true
Its time to bring back the times of the past
He can crush kill and destroy
Ressurection may not be easy
So is redemption but no ones complaining
Warrior class he ever tries to be
Never ever will he even try now
Even if he says so
Oh please say it ain't so
Madness overwhelms the man
Short of killing him just torturing it says
The un-named feeling just wants to keep him this way
The very same un-named feeling He wants to take him away
Prays for agony upon himself now just to bring about destruction and pain
He just wants some people to know it ain't only about your pain
When my pain is my pain and yours is too, so is the fact that i am without you
PAIN PAIN PAIN
Stuck in this place of eternal pain
Physical how he wishes were so
Mind and heart the only thing that hurts him so
He cannot take this anymore....




By Noraa

Life Goes On.......... Eventually.....

So sinful the love that cannot be forgotten
He brings out the lamp that should have been broken
Cannot deny the fact that he has loved and lost
They condemn him down to the depths of his thoughts
Alone and heartbroken he cries inside
Although he loves her he just wants to hide
Explicit his thoughts ever about loving her more
All of them are broken never to be seen anymore
So tired the man he dwells in his shadow
Gets into people to try and forget himself

Silently the mind plays with him,
TOYS and TORTURES and brings to the SLAUGHTER
Contrary to the mind is but a subset
He brings in the notion that there is no other
Satisfied with his own desires never too be seen again
NEVER TO BE SEEN AGAIN

Blasted out are the deep regions of brain matter
He cannot think clearly anymore
He does not want to think anymore
Forget the lonely chatter
Ain't got time for the thoughts in his head
Mindless numbing will come soon enough
Needless to say it does not suffice
Endless frustration his only device

The finale is near or so it seems
As he moves on into another dream
Of trees and green and everything extreme
NO IT HAS NOT...
The end will not come
Torture will ensue and the life of what is will be lengthened and screwed
There can be no end to this misery
He sees no end to this comedy
Comedy fit for the Gods
Triumvirate of laughers
Laughing at the reality of this tragedy
Adds the needed touch to destroy a man
Already so broken and down he can never get back up again
The END....







Or is it?










By Aaron

The Show is over.....

It is no longer funny anymore.... Lets just stop this comedy shall we?
You cannot do this to me all the time and laugh at it... It has already ceased to be funny.... Are you listening? I know you are listening to everything i have to say and i know you are laughing your heady off.... Just laugh i have got nothing to say no more... I cant fight you so too bad on my part... Mybe you can retire me now and just send me to hell, i have had enough here and im so very tired... You say to tell you when we are tired and you will give rest... Nows a good time pal, send me to hell....



Noraa might have been dead now and refuses to be resurrected anymore than He/She will want because Aaron is all but a bloody bum deserving of only death...



By Aaron

Maybe Its Just Me....

Maybe i should just row the boat away from shore and burn the oars
This day is one realli realli indescribable day of my entire life.... 26th Nov 2004....

It just keeps going and going and going

As are over...... I dun think i am happy as yet.... i may have made a boo boo in my usual late nite on com... not good news... lets see wats to come then..... haiz.... I seriously think God is a very humorous one..... He likes to watch the comedy thats called my life... I think im the comedy channel.....


By Noraa

Here I Go Again

Here is the song i wrote in 8 mins....


Here I Go Again


The want for a faith so strong no one can stand
The use of a tune so brave in fate that none can understand
The need to worship the Father Son and Holy Ghost
Brings me to my knees...

Here I go again, here in praise and worship
Here I go again, lifting up my hands to you
Here I go again, humbled by the grace and mercy you given me
Here I go again, awed by the Glory of the Lord

The feel of the love of the Father
The need for the grace of the son
The yearning for another second chance
Brings me closer to you.....



By Noraa

Exams are almost over... In 4 hrs

I wrote 3 poems and 3/4 of a song... Shall put the poems here first... maybe the song later....



Thinking of You


I think of you every single moment of my life
Ever since i have met you i am caught in your snare
I have so much to say
Maybe today will be the day
I pour my heart out to you...




Til The Day I Die


Even though all my dreams will crumble down
Even though you break apart i fall apart
I will build this bridge to get to you, til i'm through
Til the day i die...



Nothing to stop me


The full exploration of the heart cannot be fathomed
It is the rules of engagement that confines my heartache
It is the regulations that i will break
It is for my resolute stand that i would die just to keep loving you...




By Noraa

The Un-named Feeling

Wed is finally the end.... I can breathe a sigh of relief and carry on with life... I got so much to say but i cant... Im at a loss.... There is onli one way to remedy this... I hafta do it soon after the As are over and im hoping for the best... I cannot imagine what will be if the images in my pessimistic head comes to reality... but hopefully it will be a day dat i become free from this melancholy that im experiencing... Happy? more like sad to me.... Maybe army being this early is actually a good thing...



Heyz i miss you so much....
This much i can say for now....



And The Un-named Feeling
Takes Me away



By Noraa

And The Lonely Barbarian Rides Onward Into Hell

The Lonely Barbarian Rides Onward Into Hell



Among The Valleys Of The Mountain Forge
There Are The Thousands Of Mighty Men
The Grandeur Of A Figure Appears
Remains At The Peak To Stand


He Looks Down Upon These Men
He Cannot Shed Those Tears
For He Is The Pillar Of The Battle
Riding Into Hell


His Sacrifice Bold And Mighty
Saves Fifteen Thousand Men
To Fight Another Day They Cried
Truly Unbeknownst To Them


The Warrior Or Barbarian
Whatever You May Call
Rides Onward Into The Darkness
Without The Knowledge Of Them All


Slowly He Picks Up Speed
And Gains The Courage Too
He Rides On Into The West
Riding Onward Into Hell


Riding On Into The End
He Knows He Won't Make It Out Alive
He Just Prepares For The Fight That Is To Come
He Wields Tight Onto His Sword
He Braves On For The Cause
And Rides Onwards Heading Into Hell.....






By Noraa

All Purpose Pound Cake

Glorified Difference?

Em C

Em C
Why is it that the sky is still so dark and grey
Em C
Why does it seem like there’s no other way
Em C
Why are u still so far away
Em C G F Am
The breaking silence casts us all to the bleak unknown
Em C
Just in time for the coming of Him alone


Em G F Em

Em C
How is it that the world is not what it seems
Em C
How is it that the great men cant stamp their authority
Em C
How can they not see the great lie of hypocrisy
Em C G F Am
Its time to end this nonsense bring us all up in to heaven
Em C
It time for us to make the ultimate difference


Em
So won’t you come into this present
G
Just in time to save us all
F
It’s kind of familiar
Em
I know that you won’t appear


People ask why is it that you don’t come at all
They want to see the evidence of your existence
These people are too blind to see your creations
The glorious beginning stories all told are proof enough for us to believe
And we know you bide your time and we will wait for you



It’s the glorified difference
Its time to give our lives
To the ultimate one
Who gave the sacrifice
I cannot forget the day
I cannot forget the time
When you came down and died
To help redeem our lives




By Noraa

Smile For I am Gonna Be A Road Sweeper

Road Sweeping is fun.... Im so gonna learn how... Working as one in near future...
Heyz... dun be so angry.... Its gets me sad to see u so angry.... Relax k.....
And so i wrote a song... It will be in the next post....


Story of my Victorious life abundant
Gloriously full of blissful ignorance
The time to kill is near



By Noraa

Popular Culture Is SATANIC

Today the man with no qualification is gonna be touching on the subject which will ruffle many feathers of the Christian flock... Be it the Old or the young... but i dont really care...

Yes indeed popular culture is satanic.. It is so because we are told not to conform to the ways of this world, which makes it popular culture for this is the culture of the world. Im gonna talk about music, pop music to be exact... Yes it is satanic... all the stupid little boybands girls freaks and lillte black men trying to be cool... hahaz... u r all satanic.... I shall now explain... Its not onli because we are told not to conform, but also because these little people talk us into believing everything is oh so fine with society and that we can enjoy life to its max... Hahaz... wrong... Hey AV1611 people please listen up!!! Rock and Metal are not the same... And they are not satanic!!! Pop is!!! Get that... Through the likes of britney spears, j lo and many others we are told we can get married to someone we dont love and just divorce when we want to... how fun... Through the little black people and the little chinese black wannabes... They are trying to look act and feel cool... Wow.... U wanna be cool? Try believing in God, now thats cool... Pop has shown that people wanna get rich faster and better and willing to die for it... Now aint that just fine and dandy... So cool rite... Wrong...

Rock and metal are not satanic, music is what you make of it... AV1611 claims rock has satanic roots and so does metal because they are one and the same... how wrong they are... Rock did not start with the bloody satanic beetles...( lol ) It started with whosoever decided to give the guitar a drum beat... now that is rock... A tune that is based on the drum and carried by the guitar... It is never associated much with pop and popular culture until now.. The bloody fools such as busted and simple plan think they are so cool with their brand of fake rock and punk... Go home... nobody wants you.. I'm now starting to dislike rock even....

Now on to the subject close to my heart, heavy metal... Hey AV1611... Get your facts right... once again metal is not started by anyone but rather a whole group of people wanting to move away from the genre that is know as BLUES... Yes... simple as that... you may think ozzy osbourne created metal with black sabbath... oh how shallow can you people get... Honestly speaking, back to the thing about popular culture... It is a form of conformity to the view that everything is fine... Well, metal wakes you up... Yes there are people who use metal and play all sorts of satanic music i agree... These people are condemned i guess... Sold their souls to the devil... well, other genres have their own satanic people, pop in the 80s had KISS which is also rock... hahaz... see why im starting to dislike it? lol... I'm talking about the genre in general now Metal was written to show the flaws of this world... People write songs which even make so much sense, in proper english too... People like metallica, iron maiden, iced earth... they dont write songs just to please the public.... They write songs to show the world how bad we realli are... from this we can all see the wicked ways of man and turn therefore to God... Ok... i think im done ranting and raving... I still have more to say just that i dont feel like it alredi.... kkx... Im gone...

By Noraa

By Noraa

And Hell Freezes Over

Hmmx.... I am having a hard time trying to study.... This is normal... I think i am going to fail hahaz..... oops... maybe all my talk of bible college diploma may turn out to be true after all... This is truly sad... hahaz... Lets make the normal become supernormal or maybe ultranormal even... God give me wonderkid brains to study everything and remember for the exams just so i can forget it again the next day... This i pray and ask...


I'm down with a case of missing you
Its onli cure is to get to see you
In my dreams i see you
I am there holding you close to me


By Noraa

My Friend Watches Over Me

I had a friend many years ago
Who was killed by His own children
The saddest time for mankind
For weeks and weeks i cried
Even with the anger and tears
I've felt Him beside me all these years
I know He is always there for me
Helping me through hard times


I can feel Him once again
Its coming over me
His spirit flows through my veins
The Son is guarding me
Yes my friend is watching over me
I can feel it once again
His spirit flows through my veins
The Son is guarding me
Yes my friend is watching over me


I had my dreams He had His too
I called Him friend brother and savior too
I lived reckless, He paid the price
But why did he have to die?
It hurts me to feel this way
But i know He had to die
He died for the sake of us
The ones who know no light


I can feel Him once again
Its coming over me
His spirit flows through my veins
The Son is guarding me
Yes my friend is watching over me
I can feel Him once again
The Son is guarding me
Yes my friend Jesus is watching over me

Oh i know, Yes i know
He is watching over me

Oh i know, Yes i know
He is watching over me



By Noraa

Maybe im just clinically depressed over nothing...

Hello.... hahaz... u came over today... seriously hoped u enjoyed urself... cuz i know i havent been a very good host.... Hope u liked the fried rice i re-fried and the noodles i cooked... Hahaz... haf fun... Thanks for coming...



Infinite dreams are made of these:
You
You
You
You
Only You...



By Noraa

Thank You

Hey.... This is a shout out to u ( u know who u are )

Thank you for your house that we could study in
Thank you for the jokes u made
Thank you for making me laugh
Thank you for asking if i wanted lunch
Thank you for wanting lunch urself
Thank you for letting me walk with you to get more food
Thank you for letting me cook for you
Thank you for feeding me while i cook for you
Thank you for letting me eat with you
Thank you for letting me invite you to a trip to KL
Thank you for letting me wash up for you
Thank you for teaching me macro-economic problems
Thank you for touching my stubble
Thank you for tickling me
Thank you for letting me play your guitar
Thank you for sleeping so i could watch you in silence and smile
Thank you for seeing me off at the bustop
Thank you for everything i have not mentioned
Thank you for just being you
Thank you for spending time with me

Thank you


By Noraa

It Doesnt Realli Matter Now Does It?

Run
Live To Fly
Fly To Live
Do Or Die
Wont You Burn
Live To Fly
Fly To Live
Aces High.....

Maybe its time to go somewhere else
Im stuck here in this little house
Lethargic and truly unwilling to move
But realli i go wanna go and booze
Dat doesnt realli matter does it?
Seeing I might not get to do it
But still i realli have to go
I have to go to church now.....

This is the somewhere in nowhere
Trying to be something dat aint nothing
Moving to flying to crashing
Buring and Dying and Crying
Seething and Teething no Soothing
Lets Dance......

Iron out the creases of life
Wash away the stains of misery
Climb up to the highest point and jump
Swim to the lowest depths to burn
Look for a decent gun to shoot
Seek The peak to stop breathing
Search for the darkness so hiddwn within

I can be a heavy metal player now cant i?

By Noraa

Past few entries have been inspired from a few songs but written from the heart.....


By Noraa

I dare not hurt myself
Fearing there is no pain
The reality is numb
The time has finally come

Wat have i become?
I ask you my dearest friend
Everything i know goes away in the end
And i would give it all
Abandon this pile of thrash
I will let you down
I will make me hurt

I wear this crown of thorns
Upon this chair of lies
Full of myself
Full of brokeness
I dont wanna repair
Across this space of time
The feelings would never fade
You are still right there
And i am still right here

Wat have i become?
I ask you my dearest friend
Everyone i know goes away in the end
And I would give it all
Lying pile of dirt
I would let you down
I would make me hurt

If i could start again
A million miles away
I would kill myself
I would find a way

By Noraa

Dreams

The dreams that begin to pry my reality apart
It within the love of my heart
The nightmare begins when i start to wake
Everlasting the elements of which i quake
In fantasies i seek my solace
My soul can never be this honest
In truth this dream cannot last
In lies all i have to hold fast
This life has soon bid thee farewell
And soon I will bid all farewell
Understand that all i wanted was wasted years
Make a point to see how this life will end without tears
The mere existence of this shell proves i cannot gain
The reincarnation of nightmares again

By Noraa

I Would Die For You

I cant believe this now
This aint wat i planned
I lived and died now
I just cant understand
With all the love i have for you
I'd die just to be with you
Oh my soul's the price to be with you

Oh how i would love you
The pain just wont go away
Oh how I need you
You are always so far away
I would cry for you
Leaving myself to blame
I would die for you
I would give up everything


By Noraa.............

Bother

Wish I was too dead to care
If indeed I cared at all
Never had a voice to protest
So you fed me shit to digest
I wish I had a reason;
My flaws are open season
For this, I gave up trying
One good turn deserves my dying

Wish I'd died instead of lived
A zombie hides my face
Shell forgotten with its memories
Diaries left with cryptic entries


And you don't need to bother
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on
I won't let go 'til it bleeds

You don't need to bother
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on
I'll never live down my deceit


Noraa Chan.....

I Wanna Know...

Ok... so God didnt give me wat i wanted..... who cares.... just disappointed i wont go to prom on 9th Dec... will be slping my second nite at tekong.... too bad for Aaron Chan there... Always getting the bad stuff in major areas of life... Not wat i want God... who cares.... not bout me no more issit? Who gives a shit load...... Im truly disappointed with myself.... So many things to do God has given me just 2 weeks to settle things... So God would have some fun knowledge about wat i would be doing while i have yet any idea... Haf fun God... I can onli study now... hahaz... look forward to having much physical activity at Singapore's best slimming centre... I hope to get as thin as i wanna be and not get recognised when i get back.... hahaz... jus hoping onli but will try...

Ok... so God wun let me haf a later enlistment... So let me haf wat is most dear o me... come on... u can do it... hahahaz.... rite.......... realli dear stuff i love to lose... used to it alredi so haf fun... seriously... so haf fun and enjoy.... i know u will.... Im only halfway done and i have run out of words to say... guess i'll just say it another day or maybe in afew hours...


I dun wanna tell anyone im going in Dec 8th... Im telling ppl here now... see who can actually remember or bother... so sue me... i dun care anymore.... I got to know yesterday morning and i didnt tell pretty much the whole world...


By a pretty weird feelinged Noraa / Aaron rite now...

Why?

A balancing act that is tough to follow
An action that words wont swallow
An environment of darkness looming
A justified rage of emptiness within
A parallel universe where one may breathe easy
A helpless situation that has driven me crazy
A time where love doesnt go noticed
A time where insanity might just be bliss
A cry to the sky for deliverance so greatly found
A painful solace i seek for within the ground
Here lies Aaron Chan, sold to the army on the 8th of december 2004


Why do i have answers to things i dont wanna know...


By Noraa

Sleeping Is Always Bliss

I just woke up an hour ago.... Slept from 3 til then... Didnt sleep the nite before when i went with Jeff Chin and Boon to catch Yesterday Once More and 1130 and stayed out at Tampines til morning.... Hiong man... We talked lots of stuff.... Lots of it.... Good to have fellowship even if it means getting no sleep.... And yes... Sleeping is Bliss.... Sleeping is always bliss cuz dreams are fun.... The coming days are just gonna get worse and i hafta do something about it before my dying day...... I seriously hope predictions by friends are true.... seriously hope so....



I wake from a nightmare now
In the day it haunts me
It slowly tears me apart
With dreams of a distant love
I'm a wandering satellite



By Noraa

I Will Wait For You

I just finished watching a show on channel U... It is a very famous old movie starring Leon Lai... I think its called love in the city... After watching the show i cant help but feel sad at Leon Lai's life... Going one whole big round just realising the love of his life is still the love of his life... Waiting and waiting... never stop waiting.... Hey... u know wat? I'll be like leon Lai... I'll still be waiting for you......


I'll be waiting forever and a day
Only for You
My Only One


By Noraa

Lord forgive your humble creation for he is not worthy...

Lord forgive me for I have sinned
I have seen the err in my ways
You have given so much for me yet I did not appreciate
Lord I kneel before You to seek Your forgiveness and Your mercies
You are the God of wonders
You gave when I did not deserve
No amount of words can express my gratefulness and thankfulness in my heart
Hallelujah to the King of kings
Hallelujah to the Lord God almighty

Let my life now be like a love song and an act of worship onto You O Lord
Let everything I do be pleasing to You
Let my every breath praise You forever
Forever and wholly onto You
In the name of our Lord and saviour Jesus Christ
Amen


By Noraa

The Best 2hrs 16mins and 58 seconds of my life...

ok.... I just spent 2 hrs 16 mins and 58 seconds talking on the phone with a friend.... Hey friend... u want me to name you? hahahaz..... ok... im still excited about the long chat.... man... rarely am i so happy.... But hey.... i dont care..... its the best time i ever had........ Im so happie... so very happie..... HAHAHAHAHAZ...... even tml sch isnt giving me a headache... im meeting my friend tml to study... so happie.... hahahahaz.....


2:16:58
oh yeah......


By Noraa

Killswitch Engage - Time To Scream and be merry...

Went out for dinner with Jeff and Chin.... yuki yaki at cineleisure.... interesting place.... Had fun there.... Jeff is a natural when chatting up girls... jus a natural..... dats why he is the buaya king....
Went to HMV after that and both on impulse a cd by Killswitch Engage.... metal on the brink of death but nice... impressed by the first song already when i sampled it... goodbye 25 bucks hello cd.... hahaz... listening to it now.... not bad....


Ever wonder how people can just think that maturity has something to do with age.....
I dare say i was already put through the phase of being a thinking person way before i was suppose to think like one... This is why i always tell ppl out there i feel as though i am 81 yrs old and not 18.... I am seriously weighed down.... The saving grace of God helps.... i think im gonna get more aggressive as i age... signs are showing when Jeff is asking me not to be violent.... Older judgemental people are seriously pissing me off.... Please dont judge me or i just might kill... hahaz.... rite...... Please stone urself before stoning anybody else.... dumb adults..... i have to pray i will not become like them when i get older...... or i just might kill myself....
killswitch Engage is nice....


Its all about the Why and the How


When my pain is my pain
And Yours is too.....


By Noraa

I so wanna Jio u out.......

Hello..... I attended my cousin's wedding yesterdae... hahaz... Has been quite awhile since i attended anyones wedding.... The feeling i have now compared to the past is different... I used to think about the food i was gonna eat... Now i think about all sorts of mature wierd stuff like the way i walk, dress, the way i talk... hahaz... and my relatives seem to think i cant hold my liquor... I drank onli 6 full glasses of red wine... nothing much wat.... Wateva... i think i can beat them flat... And the wierdest was dat i suddenly thought about my own wedding... Hahaz.... was quite interesting... I think i will jus ask Jeff to be my emcee.... He can do his Jay Chou there...... Ok now is time to study real hard hahaz... rite... study... must study or die... wanna go Uni... must... study..... argh... hahahahahaz...... I'm so preoccupied with something else... hahaz......


I dont care how long....
I so wanna Jio You out......


By Noraa

Wow........

What Famous Leader Are You?
personality tests by similarminds.com

Hahaz... this is funny...... Im like Abraham Lincoln......